What to do about depression?
About a year ago, my marriage was in trouble. We spent several months trying to work things out (so I thought). I discovered my wife was seeing a bouncer from a club she was hanging out at with her gf’s, all the while telling me we would save our marriage. I was so depressed, I even attempted suicide twice. I also was a bit our of control emotionally, & said many things to her and this guy (& a few of her friends who I found out were encouraging this behavior) that I should not have said, things like wanting her dead for what she did to me. I ended up seeing a shrink, who put me on meds for a while. The latest was Lexapro. The meds did help in the fact that they calmed me down, but I stopped taking them altogether, for one reason. They ALL made me TOO CALM. So calm in fact, that I still entertained the thoughts of her death (& his too). But what scared me was, that those meds made me feel OK with those thoughts, like it was as reactionary as scratching your head when you have an itch
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Keep going back to the doctor! Sometimes it takes up to four different tries to find the right medication. I would tell them what you have said (scary as that may be) or just say violent thoughts. You need to get on something else. And DO NOT for whatever reason stop taking medications without a doctor’s approval. That is setting yourself up for a relapse or for even more trouble in the future. Don’t feel bad about taking medication- it takes someone strong to recognize that something is wrong and to ask for help. Go find yourself a counselor who can help you sort your feelings and make sure you see a doc to get meds that will work better for your situation. Lastly, start exercising. Even if you just walk around the block a few times a week, get moving. The endorphins that are created while you are exercising will help you to feel a little better (not on their own, however). Good job on going somewhere for help, you just need to try again! Hang in there! It will get better!
There are many medications, go back to your doctor and work out which will work for you, but DO NOT JUST STOP TAKING THEM. If you do just stop you will likely get much more depressed. That being said, do not just start taking the Lexapro again, get to your doctor and stick with the meds. Just because you think you don’t need them is exactly when you do.