I am homeschooled & I HATE it!!!? please read ?
Okay, I am a 16 year old female (soon to be 17) and I am a junior. I went to a Christian school from kindergarden through 7th grade, & then my dad forced me to be homeschooled. I HATE homeschooling with a passion. I feel so depressed & I sit alone in my bedroom all day. I tried telling my dad that I hate homeschooling, but he doesn’t care. He refuses to let me go to a public highschool, because he thinks I will get into drugs & sex. But I am strongly set on saving myself for marriage & I am uninterested in drugs because I know the outcome of using them. I just want to go to a public highschool for my last year to get my diploma & graduate. I care very much about my studies & I study hard.
Sometimes I cry because I hate my dad. He won’t let me take driver’s ED or get a job until I turn 18. I want to get a job now so I can start saving money for a vehicle.
I feel so depressed & alone. I have no life. I have no friends & the only time I get out of the freaking house is to go to the grocery store with my mom. I sometimes wish I were dead, but then I think "Everything will be better when I turn 18." But it just seems like forever in this hell hole. =(
My dad is very controlling. My mom is the total opposite from him, & she has very little say in matters. My mom, me, & my 2 brothers have to hide everything we do from him. I hate living a lie, but my god, he is such a prick.
I just don’t know what to do. There is no changing him.
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Your problem is not with home school, but with your father. He would probably be like this with you no matter how you were educated. If the rest of your family have to hide everything from your dad your problem is that you are living with an abuser, not that you are home schooled.
wow thats a life story dont worry those type of minds you cant change so that is bad for you but dont worry youre about to be 18 jejeje
just dont get fustrated fast because then life will seem that it doesnt go by fast…
wow i am home schooled too i know it is boring but dont worry 18 will come soon and then u will be free i hope u the best
wow, i have been homeschooled since 5th grade and every since 9th grade i wished i was in real school like everyone else, so i could go to dances and have tons of friends. But now that im in the 10th grade soon to be in 11th i dont care anymore bcuz i have just enough friends i still play sports i even coach soccer, i have a boyfriend. I think the reason your dad is being that way is because he doesnt want to see you get hurt, even tho i know its really hard just hang in there.
As other have said the problem is your father and it sounds like there’s no chance of changing him. You really have only two options, tough it out for another year focusing on your studies with the intention of leaving home when you turn 18 or go for emancipation if the law in your state makes that a realistic option. If you tough it out try making friends online, it’s not the same of course but should keep you going. Planning exactly what you’ll do when you are free might cheer you up a bit too. Practical plans and maybe the occasional fun dream, like a world tour
A question for you – why do you sit in your room all day? Does your dad refuse to let you out of the house, or do you choose to do that because you don’t know what else to do? (I don’t know the level of controlling-dad you are dealing with, that’s why I’m asking.)
If it’s your choice, and your dad will let you out of the house, then you have an outlet. Find somewhere to volunteer, somewhere that you can learn about things that you’re interested in. You could try the library, the zoo, a museum, a Y or Boys and Girls Club, a Parks & Rec program, whatever.
I agree with the posters above…your problem isn’t so much that you’re homeschooled, but that your dad is controlling to the point of abuse. He would still be like this – maybe even more so – if you were in public school…he would probably feel like he had to control your every move. You have a lot of opportunities open to you as a homeschooler, but you have to choose to become involved in them.
I would suggest talking with your parents, together. Propose a compromise – you will continue homeschooling and do your best, but you feel the need to be involved in something outside the house. Research some ideas for volunteer opps, lessons, classes, or whatever that you think they’ll agree to. Let them know that you’re not trying to rebel – far from it – but you feel more than ready to take something like this on and really want the challenge.
I know this may not be how you feel, but you’re in a tough situation. If you openly rebel against your dad, his controlling nature will take over and he’ll clamp down stronger than ever. Unfortunately, you’re going to have to give and take until you turn 18 and you have legal rights – this may be a way to make things better.
It does sound like your dad is abusive. Do you go to church? If you do, please talk to your minister. He might be able to intervene and suggest counseling for your dad. You might want to talk to another trusted adult as well. If your grandparents are nearby, maybe you could spend some time with them? This isn’t easy and you need to reach out for help. I wish you the best. It will get better. keep up your hope!
I was in your shoes once. My stepsister and I were homeschooled back in the ’90s and I hated it with a passion. My mom was the same way…she was worried that I would get into drugs etc and felt I needed to be sheltered from the world I guess. I was so depressed. I think I have actually repressed most of my memories from age 8 to 15…thats how bad it was. We had no friends and very little socialization. The only memory I have is going out to the building behind our house and singing for hours and hours as a means of escaping the prison I was in.
Homeschooling has changed dramatically in the past decade. There is a larger network of homeschoolers and greater opportunities for home-schoolers. After working in the public schools as a speech pathologist and seeing the condition of our public education system, I am seriously considering home-schooling my son when it comes time. If I do decide to do that however, it will be NOTHING like my experience…I will make sure of that!
Here is what I did- at 14 I took the entrance exams at the local community college and started taking college courses. Have you ever heard of the band HURT? The lead of the band was actually 14 at the same time and attending the same college. After community college I ended up going to a 4 year university far away from home. I admit, I went a little crazy there (I’m not proud of it)…it was the first time I had ever been free from ‘prison’ and felt I needed to experience life. One good thing came out of my craziness there though…ten years later I reunited with a freind from there and we got married and have a beautiful 5 month old baby boy.
Hang in there! Not sure how this works as I am new to yahoo answers but would love to chat sometime if you needed a listening ear.
i agree your dad is really controlling but maybe he didn’t like his high school years and doesn’t want you to go through the same experiences he did. I think you should really talk to him and your mother too.
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homeschooling killed me i have no life im twenty now and i have no life i got my GED when i was 18 after i had moved out but i have no social skills, no friends, no job skills, nothing. i hate my life and want to die.
Home schooling is not a good way, now u can do anything by online.
best of luck
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