Do you think about your ex?

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Is it true, that you don’t ever think about your ex if you’re in a better relationship?

Regardless of all the wrong, can your ex really change, even if it was her loss?

Remembering all the mistakes that one makes whether in a relationship or not, all the lies told, games played, jealousy & drinking issues, controlling ways, vulnerability, basically all mistakes made, can one’s ex really change for the better? It’s true, you don’t know what you have until it’s gone, but what is the best piece of advice to finally take an action, when you know that whomever you lost, has already completely moved on to someone new/ a relationship that’s better?

Instead of dwelling on it for so many years, why does it take a person so long to take that first little step to change for the better? I said something to him out of anger, he moved on completely after 2 weeks, knowing we were involved almost 5 years. Instead of hoping one can have it all back, has trouble moving on and beating themselves up for it.

Why does it take one person so long to move on from a first love? If you know that someone you loved dearly, has moved on to a better and happier relationship with someone new, you won’t ever go back to what you and your ex once shared? I’ve heard the saying, if a man wants you, nothing can keep him away, if a man doesn’t want you, nothing will make him stay.

I am going to admit, I did everything and it was wrong on my end to possibly find out if my ex still felt the same way, but instead got rejected. We had a text conversation months ago, him texting me back, he “doesn’t know what he feel towards me,” I gave in too much and still was very pushy and vulnerable. I showed him the same side of me that never changed- nagging and just plain vulnerable.

After that, I learned he changed his number after our text conversation and never talked to him since, I couldn’t. Cut all ties, he basically cut me out of his life. There was no way I was going to try to find out his new number, it would make me look even more stupid. I know I was insane for that, I made a huge mistake and felt guilty about it, but how am I supposed to apologize for the way I acted — him changing his number is like basically telling my own self to keep moving on.

Of course, it hurts to know that I once shared almost 5 years with this man, but I am pretty positive he’s happier than he’s ever been after being in a new relationship for almost a year and cutting me out of his life. I know he deserves to be happy, and it gets to hard on my end to truly be happy for him.

He was my first love and the idea of being happy for him because he’s happy with someone else, possibly his soulmate, is still in my head, it hurts. She is probably way better of a girlfriend I was to him and doesn’t make the mistakes I did.I really thought I was going to end up with him, but I made bad choices, treated him as if I was the perfect one, took him for granted and everything, that is my main lesson up til this day, even after he’s moved on and completely happy after more than a year.

Do you ever think about your ex, even though she did you so wrong, and probably would never go back to that? How am I to ever forgive myself for this, especially the way it turned out, burning myself and playing with fire? How am I supposed to move on, knowing deep inside, I don’t cross his mind at all?

He never tried to contact me. The idea that there’s something better out there for me, I just don’t see it in that way, for it was my loss.


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