Is God trying to get me to return to Jesus by DAMNING my every move?
I was "saved" or I thought I was saved perhaps 8 months ago. I really felt I gave my life to Jesus. The church said, "If you pray this prayer and you mean it…you’re saved." Well, I prayed it and meant it. Apparently I’m not saved because I’m a more bitter and angrier person than ever before, although I STILL LOVE JESUS.
Things got better/the same for me after I became "saved" and professed my new-found faith to the congregation. After 4 months, I stopped going to Church. I started drinking profusely. I started visiting prostitutes profusely. I started working as a bouncer in a nude, filthy strip club. I became angry. I started lashing out. I started cursing, getting a tattoo. I started being treated for depression. I dropped out of college. I’ve been dumped by 4 girlfriends who I was sleeping with and they all developed hatred for me while I was nice to them. All my friends stopped associating with me. I stopped reading the Bible. I stopped praying. All I’ve done is tell people "I’m a Christian. I love Jesus" and wearing a huge, gold cross around my neck.
Do you think it’s possible/probable that God is allowing me to suffer miserably and making me search out things like whures and hookers and dumb girlfriends that are immoral. Do you think God has taken it up on himself to allow me to reach the low in my life where I want to jump off the Brooklyn bridge due to my misery?
Could he be trying to show me that no matter how many girls I sleep with; no matter how fancy my clothes are; how good-looking I think I am. That no matter how many film festivals my movies make, that’s not gonna help me. Could he be preventing me from having any happiness to FORCE ME TO GO BACK TO THE CHURCH AND THE LORD?
IS GOD CURSING ME SO THAT I LOVE JESUS MORE?
Don’t they say that the devil goes after you even harder after you become a Christian? Maybe the devil turned it up a notch against me?
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1 Timothy 6:10
For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.
After being in a similar situation, I can tell you that God isn’t out to get you. God gives you multiple chances to turn away from the things of this world and it’s our choice on living in sin or living in the light. I think that the real question here is why did you stop going to church? Why did things change? If you really meant the prayer, and you turned away then there must have been a reason.
God doesn’t put problems in our life path to frustrate us and make us stumble for nothing. He wants us to grow in a relationship with Him. That’s what being a Christian is all about – loving a God who wants to be a part of our lives just like anyone else. The problems and trials are to make you stronger and allow you to search a deeper level of knowing God than before. Try surrendering your life to God and let Him do the work rather than trying to solve your problems by yourself. Also, being a Christian is a difficult way of life. The devil is out to ruin your life (John 10:10) and things will not always be easy. However, God promises that with him, we can do anything. (Phil. 4:12)
Trust Him. What have you got to lose?
It’s not "God allowing you to suffer," it’s you making bad choices and suffering the consequences.
ummm…God and Jesus is the same person…u making them out to two people…just sayin
In the Lord’s prayer remember it’s his will be done. I think you may still be trying to be in control. Let go.
Nah, God doesn’t really seem to screw with our lives anymore. You probably did it yourself.
‘ Could he be preventing me from having any happiness to FORCE ME TO GO BACK TO THE CHURCH AND THE LORD? ‘
I am a christian and have been for more than 20 yrs. God does not FORCE. Christianity is … 100% freedom.
We are masters of our own destiny.
You seek whores, work at a ‘filthy strip club’, ‘drinking profusely’ … and do ALL the things a christian MUST not do. YOU drive yourself into wretchedness. YOU damn yourself. God is not doing it to you.
You think by professing Jesus, He owes it to you to turn your life around ?
No. Self-help. Help yourself and God WILL help you.
YOU must take the first step to HELP YOURSELF.
2nd step … God steps in.
I hope this helps to make you see things clearly.
Okay this is going to sound condemning. But you say you love Jesus yet you completely go against his teaching and live your life as though you don’t believe in him and hate him.
If you really loved Jesus you wouldn’t be doing those things in the first place. Don’t you realise that your anger and bitterness is a result of your turning away from God?
Stop sinning, stop hanging out with the wrong crowd, find some new friends and turn back to God. That is if you really want to be a true Christian.