LONG STORY…………..
I was in a relationship with my ex for 3 years,he seemed to be everything i wanted in a mate,he was my best friend and my lover,but we went our separate ways because i found out he was interested in someone from a different country,i don’t have solid proof it was anything intimate but i did find clues like voice mail and text messages from the girl saying how much he missed and loved him.We have joint phone plans,record shows that he called her (internationally) everyday,sometimes twice a day,however he claimed he never had money.He said they were only friends,but in my heart i felt that it was more because he lied about her the first time i asked then i later found out more details on her,it had hurt me so much and it still does because he’s an older guy,i am pretty young,no kids,and this girl is older with two. It made me feel as if i wasn’t good enough for him.He tells me he wants me back in his life,he never wants to lose me,that he’s sorry for every causing me pain but i still see that he still talks to this girl,but again he claims..it’s only a friendship.
I really do love him,i knew he made me insecure,i don’t trust him but for some reason i don’t want to let him go.
On the other hand,i think my pain and vulnerability at the time made me jump into a relationship, at the same time my ex had left me to go to the country where the other girl is (i wasn’t sure of her then) i had met this guy that i am with now.I felt as it was a sign to leave my ex,simply because throughout him not being here with me,i had suspected for months something was not right,he had gone on vacation,didn’t call me much.When he finally came back home,the day before he did i found a message sent to our email because he wasn’t in a service area the text message was sent to the email instead..it read "i miss u and love u hon" "please give the girls a kiss for me". at that time i had enough,we talked about it,he admitted but he said he never cheated,as in have sex with her or anyone else. I just couldn’t deal with the fact that i couldn’t trust him and kept pondering over why he lied from the start. I eventually moved out like a month or two after because i just couldn’t take it..the friend that i had met was there for me through the times i needed someone to talk to..now we’re together.. but i can’t stop thinking of my ex..i like my boyfriend now,he’s really a great guy,but he’s also weird when it comes to certain things,he’s not really affectionate like my ex,and that’s what i miss a lot,he’s moody…sometimes i think he over exaggerates over simple things..the point is i like him but don’t think i can fall in love with him.He tells me he would never cheat on me,if he is put in that situation he would rather leave me than cheat. He’s also not like my ex when it comes to going out with friends,he doesn’t go out on the weekends,he’s the type to go from home to work and back. I am confused…that’s the best way to say it.
Your suggestions,advice…please.


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