My therapist says that it is worthwhile to save abusive 12 year marriage because of the history and we have 2 small kids. I told her that I want to leave and she’s telling me that I am giving up too easily (we’ve only been to her twice). I feel that I can’t take it anymore and it is not worhtwhile to me. I don’t think he’ll really change his core, just his behavior for awhile. I am in so much pain because of his verbal and emotional abuse that I go back and forth from strong to weak like I believe I am a stupid, ignorant, worhtless bitch who should drop dead from diabetes. That my kids are so unlucky to have a mother like me, etc. I have a place to go(my mom’s), until I get on my feet again. He tells me not to say a word about his ‘people’, but they can curse me out and he does nothing and agrees with them . I have to make a decision, but therapist is confusing me. She says he doesn’t really mean what he says he just is acting from his littleness. What do you think? I’m confused!
He has also choked me 3 times in the past(over 5 years ago) and i feel intimidated by him when he’s yelling in my face. Therapist is my individual therapist for 5 months prior and she’s the one who enabled me to grow stronger to be able to leave. noew she’s saying I’m giving up to easy. She has never advised me to leave though.

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