Okay, so this story’s a little complex and dramatic. Last year, I’m in seventh grade, and I meet this guy. He’s a little weird looking, bad haircut, weird clothes, and not all that popular. I mean, people in his elementary school loved him, he just hadn’t built up a reputation yet. We instantly become friends, except online, because we like never saw each other in person. His name’s Jack. At the same time, I meet this girl named Lindsey. We talked in person and online, and she became one of my best friends. Jack was definitely my best guy friend at that point, and Lindsey my second best girl friend. I fall for the guy. I’m a little embarrassed about it, so I don’t tell anyone. Not even my best friend of four years. Best friend in the world. Never fought, no secrets, talk every day, sleepover every day that’s not a school night, live at her house over the summer kind of best friend. Then I find out Lindsey and Jack dated like, all elementary school. Doesn’t matter to me, I figure it’s over. And then me and Jack have our little romance, where we flirt a lot but subtly, and get to know each other. Hug in the hallways. Pretty adorable, right? And then like, Lindsey starts liking him after he tells me he likes me. And I’m still pretending I’m only thinking about liking him. Me and Lindsey both ask him out at the same time to get him to choose. He decides he’s not going to ask either of us out for a while, but he likes me. He told me and everything. Finally, he asks me out. Me and Lindsey got in a fight over him like a week before, and we kept arguing and being pretty mean to each other. I told you, this story’s painful. Anyway, he finally asks me out. I’m happy. A little embarrassed to be dating him, but I figured I’d get over it. So when I tell Lindsey, she barely tries to put on a brave face. I can tell how pissed she is, and this whole thing was through a computer screen. I break up with him after like ten minutes, because her friendship means so much to me. I never would’ve done it if I hadn’t thought we’d end up together at some point. The next week, after some serious talking him into it, he asks her out. They last until about January. That was in November, by the way. He dates this girl Kennedy a few months later, and I’m pissed. I love him, why wouldn’t I be. I like her, but I don’t like them together. So yeah, we pretty much go downhill from there, talking less and less. In May, I talked to him after who knows how many weeks of silence, and he told me I was too high maintenance. ( I may or may not have been seriously annoying for those few weeks. Don’t know why. I just did. ) We hung out a few ttimes over the summer with a bunch of other people, but we fought everytime we talked online. Meanwhile, I’m still in love of him. Me and Lindsey became friends right after him and her got together in November. And now, we’re friends again. Me and Lindsey walked up to his house on Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday and hung out with him all day on the last two days. We talk in the halls, online, all of it. He’s not embarrassed to be my friend anymore (he was, because his friends hated me. Now I’m friends with all of his friends and I guess I’m kind of popular, so he’s not embarrassed at all. Like, it’s hard, in middle school, not to care about popularity. he hates when people hate him. So he tries to make everyone happy. He likes me now.) It’s amazing. He’s so much hotter now, and has so many friends, I’m not embarrassed at all to date him and I feel really shallow that I ever was. And I really want to tell him I like him. Before Lindsey does, who’s in love with him too. It’s my turn. He’s mine now. I still love her, but like, I dont know. I have to have a chance at this. She dumped him. It’s her fault. I was just wondering, how should I tell him? Like, how can I go over by myself (we can walk from her house, not mine though), like ask and have him say yes, and then make it work so it’s a perfect time to tell him? I want to kiss him after I say it. I’ve been saving my first kiss for a year. I’ve been in so many different situations where I could’ve kissed someone but didn’t, because that’s supposed to be Jack. Help me, I’m usually good with this kind of stuff, but it’s really important I dont mess this up. If you read all of this, I love you forever.
