He says that I did a 180 change and that it’s not fun anymore and that I didn’t care for his feelings. So he no longer has any feelings for me. I still am so much in love with him, that I think I’d take him back regardless of what has happened … what to do? He doesn’t understand the stress of planning wedding, wants nothing to do with planning, can not answer any wedding related questions and is hypocritical in his reasons for calling it off …
I did give him time, a whole month – actually a little longer, at the end, when I didn’t bug him at all, and after I tried to explain the stress I was under, telling him I understand how he feels and wanting to talk/work it through. I apologized and took 100% responsibility, I know this took over, but he said he no longer wants to fix it, that it’s too late … It just does not make sense … and it hurts so much!
I know that this planning took over) and I only saw him about twice a week, because of our work schedules and (work related) traveling), but when I asked that he share and help, I got nothing in return. He still wants to live his life as if we weren’t planning a wedding … he’s changed too – of course he says it’s because I made him change, and that he is not responsible. I can’t take all the blame, although it seems I have … he was my best friend, my greatest love, now it’s all gone …
I do/did want a marriage with him, not a wedding – I would have LOVED to just elope or have a small ceremony in the back yard with just family. This was going to be lifetime … I think someone here made a strong point, maybe our foundation wasn’t strong enough. My world is crumbling, and I don’t know that I am that strong. But for now I have to be, because I have to call all the vendors and all the family and friends, and I am left with selling the rings to pay for everything that is outstanding. This just plain sucks! Seven years of our lives – gone in the blink of an eye!
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There was a woman who bought a mirror and hung it on the wall. The man that she bought it from said it was a magic mirror. She thought and toke a shower and came out in and put on some clothes and said. Mirror mirror on the wall give me the biggest breasts of all. In a blink of an eye, her breasts grew to be the biggest in the world riping her shirt and bra. She was amazed. She knocked the mirror on the floor and looked and said. Mirror mirror on the floor make my breasts the size they were before.In the blink of an eye. Her breasts shrunk. Then she picked it up put it on the door and said. Mirror mirror on the door make my breasts a size 44HH. Here breasts grew once again.
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I’m about to be 21 years old now.. And i’ve been through alot.. enough to make it where I don’t want to EVER date again. In my mind, I believe all girls are evil and they want to eat your soul. Let me explain.
My first true love died in after a carwreck three days later in the hospital… As a result, I went into a really bad drug frenzy because I couldn’t deal with it. During this time, I met another girl.. Who looked just like her and had the same kind of personality too. Anyways, she always said she loved me and would never leave me.. [I asked her this all the time cause I was always tripping and paranoid] I was madly in love with her.. I would have killed myself in the blink of an eye.. I couldn’t imagine living without her. Well it ended after 8 months. And after it did end, I went crazy. I did things I shouldn’t have did and got locked up.. And I got a restraining order put on me. That was over 2 years ago…
I haven’t dated since. I have tried.. But I never ask a girl out.. everytime i started getting to know them.. they want to leave for someone else.. And I mean.. I always tell them i want to take it slow.. I would always plan to get to know them for a couple of months before asking them out.. But girls around my town always want to rush into things and start saying they love people when they first start going out with them. So every girl has pretty much ditched me for another guy just because I don’t jump in and start loving them. I know what love is now. I’ve felt it. Its everytime you see that person you love.. It feels like your heart drops into the pit of your stomach.. It beats so fast and you get a adreniline rush.
I just wonder if I will ever feel that again.. If i’ll ever have a wife of my own.. I don’t want to be lonely.. I’m scared of being lonely.. But i never show it around anyone.
What should I do? I’m in recovery right now.. [Been sober for a year] I’m a big Jesus freak. I go to therapy. I miss her alot.. And I hate her.. Its weird.. If I had the chance to go back with her.. I wouldn’t.. I dream about her sometimes still.. I think about her too sometimes unexpectedly.. If I wouldn’t have been on a drug that enhances your feelings x 100. I wouldn’t be this way i’m sure.
Any advice?
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