I’m getting tired of it :[?

I’m just getting tired of it all. I have low self esteem and you know what? My friends are just making it worse and they don’t even realize it. :[

They call me dumb a lot and say I’m stupid when I make mistakes. I mean, I think they’re joking. But at this point I’m starting to wonder whether or not they’re actually joking… How can I get my friends to stop "joking around and calling me dumb" without actually saying it? I just get really sad when people call me dumb joking or not. It just emotionally kills me to the point I have to hold back tears.

I just really have low self esteem. I hate myself, and I feel miserable at every waking moment to the point I just want to break down into tears and cry my eyes out. I just hate it. I can make a really large list of things that are wrong with me. I have a wide amount of depression symptoms :[

I’m so ugly its not even funny. I have blonde hair, blue eyes, and pale skin. You would think I would be gorgeous by the way I described myself but I look ugly as ever. And make-up just makes it worse. I’m also too tall for my age. I’m 5’3 but everybodys shorter then me. Plus, everybody also has breasts and I’m only a size 32A. Everyone else is a B-cup already. :[

Theres so many things wrong with me.
-I’m ugly
-I’m dumb
-I’m too tall
-I’m too nice
-I’m too quiet
-I’m boring
-I have low self esteem
-I’m always depressed
-I never go out
-I’m lazy
-I have baby fat on my stomach
-I’m slow
-I’m really sensitive
-I can’t stand up for myself
-Everybody bosses me around
-Nobody understands me
-I’m afraid to be myself
-The only people I can talk to is Y!A and internet friends
-I have no talent & not good at anything
-I’m afraid of the future because I have no future

The list goes on.

I’m 12 years old if that helps you. :[

How can I raise my self esteem and handle all the situations I have? I can’t just take a magic wand and make myself pretty or smart. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like life isn’t worth living because I’m worthless. You guys probably won’t understand. Theres nobody I know that can understand and connect to me. I tried talking to my parents and they don’t get it either. Nobody seems to care. I don’t get whats wrong with me.

By the way, sorry if its in the wrong category. I tried to make a lucky guess. :|


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