It just seems like it does so much harm to our self esteem for such a long time after the break. Or is it that we just talk about it more than the men do? Does it harm a man’s self esteem as much as it does a womans? When a partner cheats— when the break occurs because of that reason. The one being cheated on — who suffers the longest… men or women?
I would like to now why women cheat on there man who doesn’t cheat and treat you good and try to make you happy and still the women cheats or thinks hes bad and the guy tries to be funny to excite the relationship so why do women always leave a great man for some one worth less and always want back when they fuck up.
I have been in a relationship for almost two years and he has cheated numorous times and now he says he has changed how do I get pass this and move forward. I love him with all my heart but Im still hurt.
Wasting
Current mood: savage
Category: Romance and Relationships
Wasting away on promises lost. I am too tired to care. Words are meaningless when they are used as a smoke screen. I waste away waiting for moments that never come. Heart wrenching seconds that stretch into a lifetime of memories. Actions that do not match the rules of the game. I am tired of playing with a busted hand. I should fold but continue to bet the shattered pieces of my heart. I play with another that cheats at the cards. I am going to lose but the gamble will pay off. I lie to myself and hope for a miracle that I know will never come. The waiting is endless and tears at the fibers of my soul. Wearing me down until I am waiting to die from the confusion. Hatred for each breath, each heartbeat burns as the flame of my existence. Questions answered with indifference and humor. Never given a chance to build a solid base. Wanting the violence of the end. I fear to walk to the edge of the cliff and leap. I wait and waste away with the slow-burning pain. The hands that push me kicking and screaming are attached to the one that I hoped would love me. A blinding anger builds and rises until I fear my demise. I hope will come sooner rather than later. Thrown onto the razor’s edge by a cancer-ridden ghost of a past I had hoped would be better forgotten. Games being played and I am the pawn, the one that is taken out first without hesitation by the victor. Shall I tell the king he has won as I breathe my last?
The poem is about the way I feel about the situation with the relationship that I am ending. There is a background history here. Lighthealer stated it best, the issue lies with me. He has an ex-girlfriend that is living with him that has cancer. It has been going on for the past 2 1/2 months that she has been living there. His whole behaviour has changed and I understand that I need to face the reality of losing what I truly loved. I craved the affection that he brought in rarely. Light, you understand what I am saying. You are right, I should have said affection. I wrote this because the hurt and pain was overwhelming my life and I had to get it out on paper or on screen. I wrote this to heal myself a little. Get the anger and with a keyboard, cut it out. I wield a pen far better than I do my heart.
All my love,
Rashell
If your Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Husband/Wife cheats on you & they wanna get back with you…. & they tell you they still love you and they will never do it again & they mean it… do they still deserve a second chance?
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