*I am pretty sure its not his* I have never seen my bf cry until today when I stopped by his place to visit and we have been together for almost a year. So naturally I asked what was wrong and he told me that his best friend was pregnant. His best friend is a girl who used to be one of his roomates, they all lived together for almost four years. I noticed their chemistry before we dated and questioned him about it and he said they had been romantically involved for a while but that was over and they were just best friends who had been through thick and thin together. They visit each other a bit and we have gone out together, she has now been with someone else for a while and we’ve done double dates and everyone seems to get along great. So i was confused why he was upset that she was pregnant and I asked him, this made him angry and he asked me to leave but I stood my ground because I was scared maybe something had happened between them. He then told me that he had gotten her pregnant, unplanned and that they decided they were going to keep the baby because apparently they used protection and figured it was meant to be when that failed. Two months before the baby was due they were in a car accident and she lost the baby and went into a bit of depression, they stopped their physical relationship and have still been best friends since even though they both date other people. I felt horrible, I had no idea but also I think maybe he should have told this to me before now. The worst part is that he said It was so unfair he screwed up his chance for a family (he was driving and only had a few scratches) and that he doesn’t know if he can watch her be so happy and pregnant because it brings back so much to him. He said sorry and asked me to leave for a bit because he is so emotional right now . I can’t imagine going through that but I feel like he should move on from it, she seems to have especially now that he’s with me. What would you do?
** I know this is almost a repeat but it is more clarified now that I am not as emotional as I was when I intially posted ** Also this forum seems to have a more mature audience then the relationships
I’m not here to call you names that sound derogatory
My vow was to protect you in known & unmarked territory
You’ll have my support no matter if you succeed or fail
I am your brother, your guardian, your father, your male
I entered this world to complete your aura
To turn your life from a tundra into a flora
To make your life more effervescent than ginger ale
I am your son, your nephew, your darling, your male
I’m with you through the easy things & the hardest works
I’ll enter your deepest cavern where an orgasmic feeling lurks
I’ll be your sunbathing spot or shelter from falling hail
I am your husband, your lover, your rock, your male
Mixing with you is in my chemistry from morning to dusk
My essence attracts you with a deep hard smelling musk
I can make things sweet again after you thought they were stale
I am your testosterone, your masculinity, your sugah, your male
The book is called, "Poetic Eyez" written by Raymond A. Hiraldo. Gotta give the guy his credit, ya know? I for one loved this poem from the book. The pictures in it are really cool too! This poem did to me what Maya Angelou’s "Phenomenal Woman" poem did to me. I loved her poem soooo much.
Oh wow. I didn’t think other people were going to hate this poem that much. Sorry Raymond, wherever you are. I still think Raymond’s writing is good. You guys should give the other writings in his book a chance, even though some of you may not consider them as "poetry."
Well, at least you guys got some type of reaction from this poem, sorry y’all.
I dated a guy and distance got in the way
its just too hard to travel 2.5 hours each way when both people have busy lives.
but we stayed friends for 15 months since dating.
when i got a new bf 6 months ago my long distance friend said he finally realized he adored me and wanted to date again
this was frustrating and he started calling me all the time
it may have undermined and contributed to my new relationship ending after just 5 months
(i broke up with my bf 1 month ago. he seemed in shock and although he was no angel he really did care for me a lot and said the break up stunned him
he still calls me a couple times a week just to talk about nothing in particular)
anyway when i broke up with my bf i also found a new job transfer came thru.
to SAME city my guy friend is in !
we got excited and planned a big date
well i know of course he was seeing other girls while i had a bf.
anyway we had such a perfect date, our chemistry was instant and strong.
lots of pdas and then lots of kissing on his sofa at his house.
that was 5 days ago
now were apart again but talking like we always do.
just this week 3 long phone calls and 45 texts on facebook.
he knows im both busy with minor surgery and traveling wiht work until i move to his city july 4th
i know he will want to stay in touch every day possible like we did when we were ‘just’ friends.
im afraid this is bad.
im thinking to limit our conduct and not act like his buddy online.
just limit contact until i move there.
he treats me more like a romantic interest in person or on the phone but more like a buddy on emails/aim/fb chat.
(sometimes sends a :* but thats it
is this cruel or smart ?
well one BIG reason I m thinking this is th ebest tactic is that he HIMSELF stated that he doesnt know how to appreciate how much he loves someone and how much they mean until he feels like hes LOST them
when i got a boyfriend that was a wake up call
but we are in contact so much online (he always iniates) that it feels like we’re an old married couple or brother sister
i truly believe there needs to be a revived spark of mystery and distance so he can SEE that im this fun sexy cool woman who also is a good friend BUT even better gf.
What steps can I do to bring her back? We had good chemistry, and I guess I was being negative/clingy, and she said she just didn’t feel the same as she used to, and asked to be friends.
We’ve been broken for about five months, and I want to ask her to prom.
How did shakespear find his inspiration
did it come from personal experience i donr know
i think so
this story goes back half my life
its about love
loss
and happiness
joy
and life
every day we are given choices
my father has always said that "no decision is a decision and its always the wrong one"
he is right
19 years ago I was 16 it was summer and i was working at my first real job i was doing dishes. after a few weeks of being there i met her.
She was a tall brunet with thick long slightly curly hair. she was quick to smile and her eyes squinted at the corners when she did.
Built Like Marlin Monroe such amazing curves. her eyes i can never forget peircing brown sparkling with inner light
beautifull clear skin with a tinge of somthing exotic. I was horsing around with her and her best friend as she walked away i snapped a bar towel at her playfulley
it was the perfect snap right off her 18 year old but it was not my intention to hurt her in the slightest i was trying to be cute.
after the towel snapped she jolted ramrod straightand her eyes flashed fire then she quickly turned and walked away from me. I have thought about than moment more times than i can count
how it has reverberated through my life.
i thought her friend was going to dump hot coffee on me.
i quickly went after her to apologise i caught up to her and she had tears in her eyes,my gut churned and i was so sorry, those eyes burned into my heart that day.
She forgave me, and even concented to go out with me even though she was older by 2 years and went to a different high school which is a big thing in a small town.
so we dated kinda on the sly.
our second date
we ended up on a bluff overlooking the town at night.
we smoked some pot and were chatting away listining to music the timing was right
the chemistry was right
and we kissed, it was perfect.
for me it would be the kiss all others have been measured against, and found lacking
i didnt even have my licence yet, or a car she was very popular had lots of friends played basketball
I knew i was in for a tough sell with this girl, but i was hooked
then it came apart
her ex boyfriend came back into her life he was older was more exciting was a bad boy, and they had history.
so we were just friends then and worked together.
over the next few years we grew into great friends, we had common friends and hung out all the time,
in fact her best friend eventually married my best friend they have a beautifull family and are happy
i had girl friends, but she was still in my head.
she told me he had asked her to get married, she had agreed. i was happy for her, kinda.
but there was still chemistry between us and we always found ourselves drawn to each other
we always honered our promises to others but we had become best friends confidonts.
things started to go wrong for her when she was about 19
her relationship was devolving into somthing bad and dangerous he was becoming more erratic and hard drugs were being abused.
she was a mess emotionally, then her father got laid off from the paper mill ( thanks spotted owl)
he found another job but is was in vermont and they were moving away.
she stayed in their house and tried to make a home with him she payed the mortgage worked hard
and i was her only outlet
I fell madly in love with her
i knew she loved me but she couldent say it, she was so sad
we were spending more and more time together
and before long she told me she loved me too
everything changed then
things with him went from bad to worse
and she was torn she loved him too, he could be dangerouse and unpredictable though
the next few months we saw as much of each other as we could, I thought if i could love her enough she could get the strength to finally get him out of her life
and everyone be safe.
for a few months though we were magic
I held her in my arms, she loved me it was good
sounds silly and cliche, but it was the happiest time in my life
but after a time i realized somthing was wrong
with reflection i have come to realized that I had become connected to the past. I couldent understand that then
I could feel her pulling away emotionally and the rejection was tormenting
i thought if i held on tighter i could hold this thing together
she was for the first time as an adult now enjoying her freedome. and I was too much of a reminder of pain
I reacted with anger jealousy my heart was breaking this wasnt supposed to happen
we rerely spoke any more
i sank into depression drugs and self pity
all the things she hated
and i loved her anyway
we drifted apart i would see her from time to time but everythinh had changed she looked at me with contempt
then I saw her dating a friend of mine I was filled with rage at him, at her, at myself.
I felt such a fool
i felt so used
i was so hurt
i wanted to hurt her so bad, I wanted her to feel the pain i felt this betrayel
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I for one loved this poem from the book. The pictures in it are really cool too! This poem did to me what Maya Angelou’s "Phenomenal Woman" poem did to me. I loved her poem soooo much.
