extreme depression after a breakup. its been 2months with no light at the end of the tunnel.?

i need some words of wisdom on how to let go of someone special to you. she was my everything, my 1st love too. not a day goes by when i dont think about her or pray that things will go back to normal. ive cut down on contacting her, its been 2 weeks now but it still hurts the same. we used to chat alot by text, even after the breakup but id cry after the conversation had ended. i dont see her bcuz she lives an hour away but i spy on her at discos. i feel terrible, like theres no future for me. im not suicidal, but its still really bad. i dont want to talk to any1 in person, i dont want to let it out because it would just open up my wound again so dont tell me 2 c a shrink r nefin. i keep myself busy with school and friends but when im alone at the weekends and evenings it comes back haunting me, like a viscious circle. please tell me what i need to do to move on! i really want to meet sum1 but every time ive been rejected because they see my hurt in my eyes and body languge.
she just texted me about 2 seconds after i posted this question. coincidence? its a chain mail saying, "sometimes things happen that u cant explain…remember that the hardest ting to do is watch the 1 u love reject u and fight with u…2night at 11 sumthing wil happen 2 u that u cant explain…send 2 8 people in 10mins dont break the chain or u’ll have bad luck in love..xxxxx" i dont kno about u but thats a big coincidence.


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is it possible my husband loves this ex mistress and did want to see her one last tie but does not want her?

I ask because he has made NO further attempts to contact her; I gather she is on holiday (at home, and he is working) but as far as I know, he has NOT contacted her. Assume this is the truth.

So – was their meeting last week just coincidence?

History is:

In Feb this year I caught my husband cheating with a woman for a whole year and apparently he was on the verge of leaving me for her but we worked through it. He swore that was it with her. Although he said he had loved her. She sent me all his messages and texts and IMs and in these, he expressed his love for her, said he didn’t want to be with me, I was sexless and cold, but SHE was vibrant, sexy and made him feel loved and able to love again.

After I found out, he cut her off and was horrible to her. He also denied he "meant" what he said in the years’ worth of those messages. BUT –

He went back to her many many times over 6 months, after he promised me that he would cut her out of his life for good – most recently in August when he went to her work, asked the guard to call her down, she got into his van to hear him out ..

The next thing you know, my husband is arrested for ‘sexual assault’ in September. He was finally released without charge 2 weeks ago, and that was that, but they have been warned to stay away from each other.

PRESENT DAY:

As some of you know, lately (last 2 weeks) he has watched her from his work van as she walks from her office to the station; he DOES genuinely have jobs in that street but he HAS watched her as opposed to hiding behind a newspaper as he sits in his van/looking away, etc.

This has happened 3 times in 3 weeks, and each time, he has stared, and she has walked on, not stopping.

THIS TIME, SHE STOPPED AND THEY TALKED.

I can’t believe it. If the sexual assault arrest has not made him hate her WHAT THE F*CK WILL???

This is what they talked about, which I know because his partner driver "felt I should know" – he was not there but was nearby -

Admitted to her that he HAD indeed been waiting for her to approach him all those times he was parked near her work, and asked why she had been "running past" him!
Apparently he "forgave" her for having him arrested.
He wished her a happy belated birthday.
He asked how her new house was going.
Oh this is good; he asked why he "could not find her" on Facebook.
He asked her ‘can I trust you now?’ (!!)
He said ‘will you let me wave at you if I drive past you?’
She told him another guy had got obsessed with her lately and he said "See I told you you were dangerous" – what does that mean?

Please can someone decipher the things he said to her,AND tell me why would he give her the time of day?

This was last Monday but even on Tuesday, apparently he passed her in his truck and beeped & waved at her!

I am concerned as to what he plans next.


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So I know I have mentioned on here before that my dad’s best friend’s wife recently starting poking me, touching my thigh under the table (but i always thought it was because of pure coincidence or playful gesture having to do with jokes or funny incidents) but today when I am over it escalated more to her lightly tapping me on the butt two times when she passed me by…i gave her, "the stare" and she started feeling uneasy right away and mumbled something along the lines of, "why aren’t you eating anything?".Could a woman just be joking when she taps a 22 year old boy on the butt or does that mean she wants something. I told my dad and he said, "who knows…." is he in denial or whats going on? I am serious with these questions…could this STILL be innocent?
ps…please mention your age so i know who’s responding to me and how serious and relevant the responses are :)

the weirdest thing is that she’s never super nice to me when everyone is cautious (they are ALWAYS around when she pulls these things on me though)…when we happen to be alone…she tries to ignore me..When I was sitting in the bar section of his kitchen and she came up to me and said, "always sitting in the wrong place" and trying to push me off by putting pressure on my leg with her leg (it was hot). However, in front of my parents she tries to make the "games" seem harmless like pulling my hat down or something

the worst part about this is that it’s kind of turning me on and I wait until she makes the next move…but on the other hand i don’t like it and it’s wrong..and I don’t know what to do. When nobody was around I was calling their family dog’s name (mini dog) to come to me while the dog was on her lap and she wouldn’t come. So I came over and said, "come here" again to the dog and she (the wife) grabbed me by my zipper and started pulling me gently towards her…i then said, "stop you’re unzipping me jokingly) and tried picking the dog up from her lap slowly (it was close to her crotch) and I sat on the arm of the sofa chair and started asking questions about work…etc.

i wouldn’t sleep with her though AND THAT’S A FACT….i just enjoy the game…but on the other hand i don’t. It’s driving me crazy

btw…her husband is GORGEOUS! thin, big lips, beautiful skin…very sexy…Im good looking too..Im just staying that she loves him a lot.
In memory of Girly Man and Manly Girl


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