I am 23 years old, and brought up in a joint family in Kolkata. Radhika is my father’s cousin younger sister, who is just 5 years senior to me. Although she is my aunt in relation, our relation is just like friends… she even takes care of me like making tea for both of us and serving me food, and driving me to my college. She gives me pocket money….
She is indeed a very ( in fact the most ) beautiful bengali woman….and very modern too. She dresses up in sleeveless T-shirts and jeans most of the time,whether she is out or in the house.She dresses in these even when she drives me to my college. I discuss all my problems with her and so does she….She has been my best fiend all these years and I have respected her and been very affectionate about her. The problem started 3 months ago when our family went to a trip to Goa. 6 rooms were booked all total,and except she no other woman was in the trip. Naturally, she decided to take me with her due to shortage of rooms… When we went to bathe in the ocean, I was simply shocked to see her in a bikini for the first time…she was simply awesome !!! Her figure, her hips her legs are so perfectly shaped….i didn’t know that i was crossing my lines about thinking about her.But she seemed normal. I touched her elbows and hair, but she didn’t mind.That night , Icouldn’t sleep that night, but kept staring at her lovely sleeping innocent face. I fell in love with her.. Last week we went to Aquatica together (a water sporting club in Kolkata ) and I saw her all wet in her bikinis once again..she doesn’t have that much consciousness that her "little friendly" nephew is a man now. She goes to her office after dropping me to college in her car,but when she is inside my college premises, I become jealous thes edays when any other person looks at her with lustful Eyes…
I have also started masturbating thinking of her. And whenever I get a chance, I smell her
hair, or the smell from her elbow crease… IS THIS LOVE ?
I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT HER AND I LOVE HER GODDAMNED SO MUCH….
SHOULD I PROPOSE TO HER ? I KNOW THIS IS INCEST ,WHICH IS A SIN BUT I AM SO HELPLESS…
PLEASE HELP ME…PLEASE
Please help, I think I have the worst boyfriend in the world…
ok… my boyfriend and I met on the street in my neighborhood when I was on my way back home from the grocery store back in 2006 he always told me he loved me but as our relationship went along I started to notice that he did not mean it.
He was doing drugs and one time he stoled from me and gave to his friend to buy drugs with it and when I tried to get it back from him he yelled at me and then he slaped me in the face. As time went along he started treating me real bad he was always blaming me and accusing me of cheating on him while he was at work. He barely ever took me out and when he did it was only to go bar hopping and get me drunk.
One time he got me so drunk (he took me out to a restaurant and ordered me nine drinks) that I almost lost consciousness and when I got home I was vomiting and I was already 2 weeks pregnant by him.
My family was so mad when they found out I was pregnant they wanted me to get an abortion but I refused I told them I was 19 and old enough to make my own descions they said they were going to take me to the abortion clinic anyways and get the abortion done I told them I wont go so they spoke to their friend and she advised for them to force me to have an abortion against my will but they said they did not know how to do that. My boyfriend is 35 and very immature for his age he blames my family and curses them all the time and says he hates everyone.
He urinates in the street on the sidewalk and sometimes on people’s cars. He cheated on me with the irish bartender at the local irish pub and then gave me HPV. We lived together for a few months and when he could not have it his way he would get aggressive and hit me one time he was choking me and so I screamed and the landlord from downstaires heard him so he knocked on the door and asked what was going on it was only then when he stopped. He was mean to me once and told me to get out and was shoving the door of his apartment on me and he got so mad because I told my mother that he was doing drugs and giving me drugs while living at this apartment.
He barely ever takes me anywhere except to a restaurant or bar hopping to get me drunk. Usually when he calls me he only wants me to go to his apartment to have sex and nowhere else. He says that he is my husband even though we are not married and that I have to do whatever he wants. When I was pregnant and he knew I was having a girl he was talking about her private parts and said some sexual things about her and said that if I was with another guy he would rape my daughter because she will not be his biological child and he will not like her because of this.
He loves to fight with my family and says if I ever cheat on him he’ll kill me and the guy. On new years day he caused a big scene he was calling me on the phone and talking to me about my grandfathers death so I put it on speaker so my grandfather could hear what he was saying. My grandfather told him never to call again but he kept calling when my grandfather shut off the phone he ended up at the door banging loudly demanding to be let in and cursing everybody out my grandfather said if he didn’t go away he was going to call the security he did not leave and my grandfather had to call security and when the security came he was arguing with them and got 2 summons to go to court 1 for tresspassing and the other for disorderly conduct.
He says that since I am his wife (which I am not) I have to take care of him and cook for him and clean his house I told him I wont do it because I am not a maid he does nothing for his 2 and a half year old daughter and does not pay any child support whatsoever. He blames me for not having my own apartment and still living with my parents at 23 and not being able to cook or clean. He is an illegal immigrant from Ecuador and not legal in America. My parents tell me the only reason he is interested in me is because he wants to try to get legalized on my behalf. When I was in the hospital having his baby he was there all night long because he wanted to make sure his name was on the birth certificate, he refused to leave until the hospital personnel kicked him out.
I was sick for some time and did not go to his apartment for 3 or 4 days. He went to the local pub and cheated on me with that irish bartender and then gave me HPV from her I also found some calling cards from escort services in his apartment. When I asked him about it he denied it and said it was old calling cards that he used when he was single and that he forgot to throw them away. I also saw some phone numbers which had female names in his phone book.
I had to get 2 surgeries in order to get rid of the HPV that he gave me and he was not with me in the hospital when I had these surgeries. I really think he’s a terrible guy and I want to leave him but I am also afraid of being single and having no one at all. I also want to have more kids and I know that without a guy I can’t get pregnant what should I do?
My friend has put me in trouble. He didn’t do it intentionally. And now i feel he is being separated from me due to the guilty consciousness he have. I want him to be like how he was before. His personality is also too delicate and gets upset or angry soon.
Yoni massage offers women the opportunity to enhance their sexuality and is actually a long-held practice. The practices gathered in YONI MASSAGE are designed to help women overcome barriers to sexuality and involve changing consciousness as well as body patterns: both new age and health collections will find it intriguing.
There is no way to tell how to do a yoni Massage step by step. So what I’m going to do is describe how I would do the ceremony for my wife. It is not that we men don’t want to satisfy you ladies, we just don’t know how to do foreplay for an hour or two. I hope this will give some enlightenment in that area.
Start by getting cleaned up, shower, shave, just like you were going out for the evening; but don’t get dressed. Since my wife and I like to do this at least once a month we have robes just for this occasion. My robe is light cotton, knee length and powder blue; my wife’s is white lace and floor length.
Now it is time to make things ready for your Goddess; this must be your mindset for the next two to three hours. Everything you are doing is in worship of “your” Goddess. Run her a bath with scented oils. Place candles around the tub and play soft music. Bring your Goddess to the bath. Slowly undress her and help her in the tub. Take her clothes and close the door leaving her to relax. (Now you are using aromatherapy with the scented oils and music therapy to help her relax.)
While she is relaxing it is time for you to set up the sacred space. You can use the bed but make it special with candles and incense. I use a blowup bed with a fake fur covering it in the living room just to make it different. You need to cleanse the space. Using the incense, walk around the space pushing all negative energy out of the space. You can do a chant or whatever you feel is necessary.
Now it is time to retrieve you Goddess. Bringing her robe softly knock on the door so as not to startle her. Help her out of the tub and dry her off. Put her robe on her and lead her to the sacred space. Have her lie face down as you pull her robe off.
There are any number of oils you can use for the massage. Straddle her back and start with your hands between her shoulder blades. Work up and out, massaging her neck and shoulders. Talk softly as you tell her how you are pushing the negative energy from the outside world out through her finger tips. Massage down each arm and each finger. Follow your hands with soft kisses and little licks. You want to remove the tension and build up the sensuality at the same time. So this is a relaxing massage and a sensual massage at the same time.
Between licks and kisses keep softly talking to her. Have her feel the negative energy leave her body. Now work your way down her back, her hips and her butt. Move to the side and work her legs; always pushing the negative energy out her toes. Massage each of her toes, now do the other leg. Have her turn over and start again between her breast and work your way down just as you did on her back. Now comes the Yoni massage.
Get between her legs and pull her knees up. Bow with your hands in a praying fashion. Now ask permission to enter the Yoni. Never enter the yoni without permission. I’ve never heard of a goddess saying no so it is really a formality, but a very important one. This shows respect and worship of your Goddess.
When she says yes slowly insert your middle finger in the yoni and cup her mound with your palm. Just hold her that way as you put your other hand on her heart. Tell her to feel the energy flow from her yoni up your arm, across your heart, down your arm into her heart and back to her yoni. As she starts to feel the flow of energy bend your middle finger back in a come here manor.
The walls of the yoni are very smooth except right in front. There is a section the feels like corduroy. It is still slick but fells rippled. It is only about an inch square but is the most sensitive place on a woman’s body. Just massaging it lightly will send most women into orbit. It is directly behind the clitoris and stimulation both at the same time is the bind blowing part. You can adjust the pressure, the stroke and the direction of the stroke. Each one gives a totally different pleasure to the woman.
The goal is to keep her riding the wave as long as you can. There won’t be any mistaking when she goes over the edge. Let her come down slowly. She should let you know what to do next. She may want penetration, not necessarily intercourse but just a bonding. She may want to just drift off to sleep or maybe cuddle and sleep together.
