I was married to a woman who did not treat me the way I treated her for the most part for almost 20 years. As of last year I grew fed up and told her I needed her to be nice to me and to treat me like I should be treated, or move out!
Well instead of working to make our relationship better she split. Let me be honest here, I was no angel either, I talked her into the swinging lifestyle thing, and she reluctantly agreed. We messed about with it for a couple of years, and then she said no more.
I was angry and to prove to her she could not tell me what to do, cheated on her. I am aware this was very wrong. But after I told her that I had been unfaithful and begged for her forgiveness, we when to a counselor. I laid it all out to the person we were seeing and was working to be a better husband.
OK let me back up here, she has always had a control issue, and is a true shopaholic. She had kept us on the edge of being broke for the whole 20 years. She was seeing the person I was so she could get help with this as well, but she never did the things that the therapist said she should, in fact she would go right to the mall after our sessions.
She even opened a credit card in my name and racked up ,000 in debt in 5 months, before I caught her. And I sill wanted to work it out, but she HAD to change. Like I said earlier she elected to leave other than change.
I am REALLY angry all the time and it has been almost a year. And I cannot seem to be happy for longer than a day, I am sad all of the time and I can not seem to find anyone new. I know the swinging this was bad for the relationship, and I have learned from this.
But I am very lonely, how do I fix this for me? I do not think anyone will ever love me again. I keep getting turned down or blown off in the dating world, I HATE the online dating thing, why do people think it is OK to be so rude to other people, just because they are attractive?
I do not know what to do! I am sick of being sad.
