I haven’t written a hatred poem for a long time but I gave my love my life, to this guy and promised him happiness yet he refuse to take it and left me. He refuse to give me a second chance like I gave him. I was left at home suffering and punishing myself every night and crying. The moment he said, "I never want you back" my whole body became numb.
Any suggestion to make this better, please tell me
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I woke up choking, struggling for air
I’m short of breath, heart’s beating in pain
My heart’s in the hand of the demon of despair
The fear is making my mind insane

Every night this shadow stands by my bed
Choking my neck and ripping my heart
Putting all these voices in my head
Giving me hope then ripping my skin apart

I filled my heart with hope and love
Forgotten the grief, Forgotten the pain
Prayed for guidance from the sky above
Trusted the false just to feel like I’m sane

My heart only ached for one more chance
Begged the demon to let me free
To reunite with my love, my perfect romance
But I was left dead with terror that I hadn’t foresee

Leaving me with a heart as dark as death
My mind’s too shaken, my vision collapse
Look in to my eyes, there’s nothing left
Traded my heart just for hollow crap

Befriended with lies and unchained your heart
I have blindly free you in to the wrong direction
The stronger my love, the further we part
My love is now a crime, a fatal injection

My gift for you was my heart to take
Lets throw it away like it’s decayed flesh
Trapped in my promise, a promise I won’t break
Now it’s solitude I choose until I’m none but ash

This is the path I have fallen to face
I’ve became my own hate that I’m sick of feeling
Being unbearably punished in my own disgrace
I’ve became my own saviour to stop me from fading

Forget the past, Forget the future
Forget everything that had ever existed
I’m just a blemish in your life that’s nothing but torture
Forget the memories and let it desist

The air sweet with wings now dark with scars
Too afraid to turn back, too afraid to fly
Given up your wish on the shooting star
The wish came true but it never got through your eyes
I am in coma, let the lies eat my mind
Hyperventilate with the voices shattering in my head
Leave me alone where I was left behind
Burden from the past and what lies ahead

This love now fear on the string of a promise
Buried inside a heart as deadly as death
No more to believe, nothing to miss
This love locked away forever from everything that’s left

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well i ad gotten back from staying 2 days at a lake and when i checked my email my ex said im sorry i have to break up with you and my heart dropped putting me into instant deppresion and i have many questions in one i thought id never ask anyone but i need her to love me again and is it weird that one look into anyones eyes and i can tell what they are feeling i want to see her eyes then i will know what she is feeling im emo goth whatever else along those lines you want to say so is she i love her very much its been about a week and ive hardley eaten anything i dont talk realy to anyone im in deep deprression ive written her 4 page poems this is one there is no word for the feelings i have for you i understand why you hurt me i know you had to for if you didnt the pain would be so great that you should fall so to the horrible of fate i know i realy love you i understand you do to i am so shaken i dont know what to do it affects the way i eat it affects the way i sleep everytime i think of it it surely makes me weep i have to drag my soul to just get up and move everytime i look at your picture it makes me want to die im sorry i screwed it up im sorry i hurt you so i know you still love me so that is why i want to go i want to die the most painful of death and i still remember the velvet taste of your breath it is not fun it is not cool to sit and weep and remember the time i had with you i love what life brings i hate what life takes i know for i am the most deadliest of fates i brought you to much love i brought you to much joy for after all i am not god i am just a gothic boy you are my love for it is true all i want to do is spend my life with you for that is not the case i wish i could just taste you love for it is the most agile of frangrances i love your dark black hair i hate you bring me despair i know it is the thing to do i know it is right i know it inside me and so i will fight the demon of death the leader of the cruel the killer of all people and the leader of the ghouls i shall run i shall hide to kill the deadly tide of love from love comes hate from hate comes envy from envy comes death from death comes life life is not fun without the one i know its true i need to be with you i know i am not right i know i am so wrong i know you are so right it hurts me to know that i will always need to fight if i want it bad enough i guess god thinks i dont ive dreamt about and omen that surely says i wont being your freind is not enough i know i need your love it kills me to know i guess i shall never know what would have been if both us were normal would we act like lovers or would we act formal now i guess is not the time i waste my time trying at somthing that you wont ever let be i am so sorry it slowly killing me to let you know what i have felt to let you know i know i have delt with all of this with you i am so hurt and tired i dont know what ill do btw i wrote this and im sorry i have dont anything to you i know you had to do it i am so hurt i know it is right i know i feel like dirt i need to be with you and i know i cant i want to kill myself for that i will not i know if i want it enough god will grant it if i get on my knees and beg will help it and she wont come back and she says i didnt do anything but wont tell me why i love her very much and i need to have her again ive done about everything i can do to get her to come back and it doesnt work
and i need to have her back i love her way to much

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