Five years ago, I got married at the age of 26. I met a woman whom I loved and wanted to change my life for. I did have a problem with commitment, but I wanted to show her I could love her the way she deserved to be love. Unfortunately, I proved to be not ready for such a commitment like marriage. My wife and I split after almost a year of marriage. The split was hard and we still loved each other and spoke everyday, but it’s what I felt I needed. After months and months of separation and heart break, she finally asked me to stop contacting her since I was the one who left the marriage. I did what I was told.
I have always seen my wife as the love of my life, and I knew one day by fate, we would be together again. One of her best friends passed away who was also like a best friend to me. I attended the funeral and reconnected with my wife. We started speaking again in November.
Since then, I have fallen in love all over again with my wife. I have been trying to take everything with her slowly. I want her to see how I have matured and I’m ready to be the man she always saw deep down inside of me.
We have been involved with other people since our separation, but I never had a steady girlfriend because that was not my goal. My wife has been involved with a man for almost a year now. I know she cares for him, but she cannot and will not love him the way she has loved me.
I told her I wanted to get back together. She’s my wife, and I want to make our marriage work. The time I spent apart from her showed me how much I needed her, and with the death of our friend, it has just shown me life is too short to live another day without my wife.
She told me she is now with a man who wants to love her, raise children with her, and be a man for her. She says she deserves love and I was to fearful to love her the right way.
I know she still loves me. We speak every single day. She asks me how and why I miss her. I told her the other day how everyday I think about her carrying my child and giving me the greatest gift, and she started crying. She’s just so angry with me.
Do I let her go or do I fight for her? I was selfish before, but now I just want what will make her happy.



