well he was my first love and my first time
im totally over him…but the way he hurt me
just affects my relationships now…its nearly been a year
and i don’t feel nothing for him anymore no hate…no love
ive been messed around by another boy which affected me

but not as much i managed to
get over him really fast
because the 1st one broke my heart
and i don’t even know if it was repaired…well im moved on now
got this boyfriend who treats me like the world…and i trust him
with all my heart.but the thought of that
scares me..t im trying to stop myself from trusting him because

i know deep down he wont hurt me but its like a brick walls around me
and i trust him but i have doubts about trusting him because
how the others have hurt me….

its like when he goes home…i cry because its like my ex left
my house had what he wanted from me and never came back
i never saw him again…so i feel im never going to see him again
even though he kisses me goodbye….

and i get moody with him when he drops a comment that doesn’t mean
bad but i make it the wrong way in my head,,,,im moody with him when he drops plans
which we arranged….well like today he said well for example: i do suffer with urine infections
which hurts like hell so before we do “anything” i ask him if he would wash hes hand
and i go for a pee after and before..because when ive got them

i cant go to college they stop me from walking they hurt so much
and the results say im getting them from bacteria getting pushed up
so i like to be safe so i can keep up on college… and he dropped a comment like so your going
to make every boy you have sex with in the rest of your life do this…well i know he didn’t mean it
as in im bu.gg.ering off but it made my heart sink..

i know he cares because when i tease him and say something about another boy such as on text he
will put an upset face and he says hes glad were together but that hurt me
, i tryed to never fall deep again

but it just happened and i cant loose him i do trust him so i know
it can work but im messed up a little inside… im OVER my ex
because i wouldn’t be with someone else if i wasn’t that would be wrong
and hes not just for comfort because the one who i wasn’t with
but messed me up recently (about september-october time) was for comfort
because when i found out he was messing me around

i got over him quick and relished i didn’t care….which i wouldn’t do again
because it just doesn’t help at all
but i know i love my boyfriend now
as i get the same strong feelings i just get paranoid what can i do to stop this
because i cant loose him? you really have to go though it yourself
to relies hoe much it affects you

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ok. my ex and i started dating in January of "09". we just broke up in February of 2010. we had spent every day together. that is until i went away to college. i was only 17 when i got with him. he was my first love and my FIRST. we became extremely close with each others family and friends. i even fell in love with his 5 year old son. YES he has a kid. him and his baby momma broke up when his son was 3. after i went away to school the relationship became strained. about a month ago i found out that he had cheated on me with her. i broke up with him even though he tried to convince me that it will never happen again. since i would not give him another chance, i guess he decided to make things work with her. i go home for spring break in a couple of days and i have made it my goal to get him back. i need ANY advice on how to rekindle my old flame.
PLEASE: no bullsh*t about how i can do better or he will cheat again or i shouldnt come between them. these are all things i have thought deeply about and i realized that he is who i want to be with!
ok for all you negitve nancy’s thanks for the abuse. but to let you all know, she KNEW him and i were together and she is a horrible mother. she has 3 kids 3 different daddys. i can HONESTLY say that i spent more time with their son then her. he called me crying last week asking me why i dont play with him anymore.

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Do you think about your ex?

Thanks for reading, I know it’s a bit long, but appreciate it very much.

Is it true, that you don’t ever think about your ex if you’re in a better relationship?

Regardless of all the wrong, can your ex really change, even if it was her loss?

Remembering all the mistakes that one makes whether in a relationship or not, all the lies told, games played, jealousy & drinking issues, controlling ways, vulnerability, basically all mistakes made, can one’s ex really change for the better? It’s true, you don’t know what you have until it’s gone, but what is the best piece of advice to finally take an action, when you know that whomever you lost, has already completely moved on to someone new/ a relationship that’s better?

Instead of dwelling on it for so many years, why does it take a person so long to take that first little step to change for the better? I said something to him out of anger, he moved on completely after 2 weeks, knowing we were involved almost 5 years. Instead of hoping one can have it all back, has trouble moving on and beating themselves up for it.

Why does it take one person so long to move on from a first love? If you know that someone you loved dearly, has moved on to a better and happier relationship with someone new, you won’t ever go back to what you and your ex once shared? I’ve heard the saying, if a man wants you, nothing can keep him away, if a man doesn’t want you, nothing will make him stay.

I am going to admit, I did everything and it was wrong on my end to possibly find out if my ex still felt the same way, but instead got rejected. We had a text conversation months ago, him texting me back, he “doesn’t know what he feel towards me,” I gave in too much and still was very pushy and vulnerable. I showed him the same side of me that never changed- nagging and just plain vulnerable.

After that, I learned he changed his number after our text conversation and never talked to him since, I couldn’t. Cut all ties, he basically cut me out of his life. There was no way I was going to try to find out his new number, it would make me look even more stupid. I know I was insane for that, I made a huge mistake and felt guilty about it, but how am I supposed to apologize for the way I acted — him changing his number is like basically telling my own self to keep moving on.

Of course, it hurts to know that I once shared almost 5 years with this man, but I am pretty positive he’s happier than he’s ever been after being in a new relationship for almost a year and cutting me out of his life. I know he deserves to be happy, and it gets to hard on my end to truly be happy for him.

He was my first love and the idea of being happy for him because he’s happy with someone else, possibly his soulmate, is still in my head, it hurts. She is probably way better of a girlfriend I was to him and doesn’t make the mistakes I did.I really thought I was going to end up with him, but I made bad choices, treated him as if I was the perfect one, took him for granted and everything, that is my main lesson up til this day, even after he’s moved on and completely happy after more than a year.

Do you ever think about your ex, even though she did you so wrong, and probably would never go back to that? How am I to ever forgive myself for this, especially the way it turned out, burning myself and playing with fire? How am I supposed to move on, knowing deep inside, I don’t cross his mind at all?

He never tried to contact me. The idea that there’s something better out there for me, I just don’t see it in that way, for it was my loss.

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I’m a nineteen year old very mature male and in a relationship. I’m homosexual; if that makes a difference. I’ve know my current boyfriend for 7yrs now. Throughout hs we always talked on and off and recently for the past almost 7months we’ve been dating. This i have to say is my first love. I feel like kyle is the one for me. He makes me very happy.
Recently this week we’ve been having severe communication probs. we’re both in college 200mi away we both work, our schedules conflict. So i’ve talked to him about how i feel he doesnt care and he’s been short with me. And last night i would say i overreacted. He was with his friends and i was at work on break i called him he was short THATS EXPECTED HE WAS WITH HIS FRIENDS. but i had texted him a question that required a one word answer. sent is twice NO RESPONCE. I’m not this lame i wasnt upset with that fact of the text it was that we’ve been talkin about comm and he completely thru it out the window and nowWEmightBreakUp

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okay.well i really want my ex back. hes was,is my everything.he is my "first love" we went out the whole summer and for some stupid reasn i broke up with him. hes my bestie now but i am still inlove with him.i cry everynight cuz i miss the way he held me and told me i was beautiful. (even when my hair was up i was in sweat pants)how do itell him? should i tell him? how can i get him back? HELP!

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I had my heartbroken like no other almost a year ago. She was my first love and I still think about her. We don’t talk or see each other.

Anyway I’ve been in and out of relationships and it seems as if all the women I’ve went out with are all bad. One cheated, one lied, and one just wants to play games. I’m so tired of this how can I tell myself that they aren’t all the same? or even feel what I felt for my ex-love? I feel like I won’t ever love again…

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My current girlfriend was in relationship with her now ex-boyfriend for like 4 years, in really serious relationship.

4 months ago he dumped her, but she isnt over with him yet….two months ago i started loving her…she tells me now that she doesnt love me the way i love her (she’s my first love n i love her with all my heart), she says she just likes me, thats it……currently she’s in different city, her ex is in the same city, they meet everyday n call each other everyday too, and she loves him a lot, but he ignores her, even though she has confessed her feelings for him after their break up many times…..she even kissed him twice recently after they both got drunk…..

Now, i dont know what i should do, since recently she told me on phone that she actually used me…..her ex told her that he would be frnds with her only if she got a new love, so she used me, in order to talk to him, since she loves him a LOT……she says she’s really sorry, wants to love me back but loves her ex, n says her ex ignores her whenever she talks about her love for him, but he still contacts her everyday….I really really love her a lot, don’t wanna let her go, but she doesnt love me dat way, loves her ex a lot, n he’s a guy who ignores her, but still wants to be in contact with her, n worst part i cant shift from my current university to the city in which she’s studying…..WHAT SHOULD I DO????? m really really depressed…..PLZ HELP!!!

10 POINTS WAITIN’ !!!

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Do you think it’s bad to go back out with your first love after you and another love just broke up?

My first love is still in love with me and I feel the same way about him. He want’s to get back together but im afraid he will think im only doing that to get over my second love.
What do you think?

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Hi, So we broke up about 3 months ago and completely stopped talking about a month ago. She has recently tried to talk to me a little bit. I would ignore her at first but about a week ago i responded but acted as if i was over her. I said something like "just friends" and she said "so your over me?" so i answered with "isnt that what you wanted: and she said "i guess." A few days went by and i thought i would have heard from her but didnt. She was leaving for Nicaragua with her church to build houses on Saturday so on friday afternoon i just IM’ed her to say have a good trip and we talked a little while then i said i had to go. Later that night she IM’ed me and we talked some more and i told her that we should talk when she gets back because i know things between us havent been exactly comfortable recently and she said "yes, thats fine" She has been gon for just about a week now and comes back on sunday night. I want nothing more then to get back together with this girl. We were together for a year and for the she has recently tried to talk to me numerous times in the last two weeks. I really miss her and love her and want to know if it sounds like were on the road to getting back together and what i can do to get her back in my arms. She was my first love and i really really really want her back. Anything Helps Thank you

P.S- i spent a lot of time trying to get her back right after we broke up, so then i just kinda took it easy and stopped talking to her for a while and i guess she go the point. I went back to therapy for this girl and made some serious changes that i needed to make in order to make our relationship work. I just want the shot to show her how much i have improved. How do i get her to agree to giving me that one shot i need? I just dont want to act like im overdooing anything.

P.P.S- She came home yesterday and we talked for a tiny bit online which was really nice but i had to go and she pointed out a convo i had with this other girl on facebook in school, what should i do, and what does this all mean?

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hey, i’m 19. me and my ex-lover who is also 19, had an honest, solid relationship. we were really close. i became unhappy in our relationship because i realized how much more mature i was than he is. i love this guy but he is so immature. i wanted to find someone who was more like me, who wanted to travel, was more mature and spiritual, looked different, etc. i started getting close to another guy, and i wanted to try having a relationship with him because i wanted to explore. my ex was my first love and i wanted to try things with this new guy. i explained everything to my boyfriend. he did NOT like this, and it hurt him. i hurt him a lot. we were so close. i wanted too much, tried to perfect my love life but it backfired and now i miss my ex so much and it made me realize how important he seriously was to me. he made me happy and i got bored and distracted by this new potential love-interest dude who turned out to be so much less than i had imagined and i lost touch with the fact that my relationship with my ex was soo great and vital to my life.
we broke up about a week and a half ago. after we broke up, me and "the new boy" hooked up. during the "hook-up", all i could think about was my ex and how much of a mistake i was making for us. it wasn’t until then that i realized all this. all i was trying to do was get an ego-boost from another dude. all i really wanted was to express myself and have other people to recognize me for being beautiful and smart and whatever else i wanted. i wanted someone to be into me and make me feel important and amazing. but it was stupid and dillusional, what i did. all i was doing was not appreciating my boyfriend and thinking all about me.
so anyway. what should i do????? or not do??? to make him want me back. because i know he still loves me, this guy was totally in love with me. and i hurt him a lot. i know he HATES cheaters. but i know that i was honest with him about this and didn’t cheat. and he admires that but i know what i did hurt. but what can i do to make him want me back regardless of that mistake i made and how do i approach him about it without seeming like i have no pride
please help thankyou for readinggg

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Hi, So we broke up about 3 months ago and completely stopped talking about a month ago. She has recently tried to talk to me a little bit. I would ignore her at first but about a week ago i responded but acted as if i was over her. I said something like "just friends" and she said "so your over me?" so i answered with "isnt that what you wanted: and she said "i guess." A few days went by and i thought i would have heard from her but didnt. She was leaving for Nicaragua with her church to build houses on Saturday so on friday afternoon i just IM’ed her to say have a good trip and we talked a little while then i said i had to go. Later that night she IM’ed me and we talked some more and i told her that we should talk when she gets back because i know things between us havent been exactly comfortable recently and she said "yes, thats fine" She has been gon for just about a week now and comes back on sunday night. I want nothing more then to get back together with this girl. We were together for a year and for the she has recently tried to talk to me numerous times in the last two weeks. I really miss her and love her and want to know if it sounds like were on the road to getting back together and what i can do to get her back in my arms. She was my first love and i really really really want her back. Anything Helps Thank you

P.S- i spent a lot of time trying to get her back right after we broke up, so then i just kinda took it easy and stopped talking to her for a while and i guess she go the point. I went back to therapy for this girl and made some serious changes that i needed to make in order to make our relationship work. I just want the shot to show her how much i have improved. How do i get her to agree to giving me that one shot i need? I just dont want to act like im overdooing anything.

P.P.S- She comes home today, what should i do about that, like do i wait till she approaches me (i think i should do that) but are there any other suggestions please

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(We started going out on April 15th, 2007)

Matt & I went out for 1 year 4 months & 14 days and we were perfect together. We loved each other more than anyone else could possibly imagine. Everyone said we were just so perfect and we were such a cute and perfect couple. For my Christmas and 1 year anniversary present Matt got me a promise ring, and promised to be with me forever. He had everything planned out and he even had when he was going to propose/be engaged to me planned. I was going to invite him to go to prom with me this year (2008-2009), but now that we’re not together I don’t know if that’ll still happen. Everything was perfect & I was so excited because I wouldn’t have to go through the pain of a heartbreak and finding someone to to spend the rest of my life with since I was with Matt. Matt was my first boyfriend, my first love, my first kiss, my first makeout, the first guy I really hungout with, the first guy I actually believed was different, the first guy I held hands with, he was just my first for everything.

Well as we all know that didn’t happen…everything changed. Matt & I broke up and yes my heart did get broken, and it still is. But…We’re still going to stay friends and still talk as friends, just not about the break up. I honestly wanted to try to make it work, I didn’t want to give up and I was hoping he wouldn’t give up either, but he did. Matt told me not to blame myself for the break up that it was all him, but I just don’t see how I couldn’t have any part in that…So I started thinking…if I would have just said yes to one thing I told him no to, maybe it would’ve worked out, maybe we would still be together. Such as dancing…I hated dancing, and I figured out why…because I never had a real boyfriend to dance with and I’d never danced before…but since I started going out with Matt he got me to start dancing, and I like it now, but it was only because it was with him, and I was in his arms. I just really wish that I could go back to every single thing I said no to, and change it to a yes. Since Matt was my first for/with so many things it’s harder for me to let go of him. I wasn’t Matt’s first for a lot of these things so it’s not as hard for him as it is me. We’ve cleared everything up about the break up and now it’s just a matter of time before the heartbreak will get over. I’m glad Matt is actually happy now and all I want is just for him to be happy!! Even though we’re not going out I am glad we’re staying friends, because I don’t want to loose him completely!! Yes talking to him is hard now because I can’t call him on the phone and talk to him like I use to. I also…can’t call him "sweetheart" anymore, I can’t say "I love you" anymore, I can’t say "I miss you", I can’t kiss his soft lips, I can’t just stay in his arms during a hug anymore, I can’t hangout with him like I use to, I can’t hold his hands anymore, I can’t call/txt him to say good morning or good night anymore, and nothing is going to be the same. So it’s going to be hard.

I’ve prayed to god every single night asking for just one more chance with Matt, and to have god just put it in his head, or dream of what use to be. But as of now, my prayers haven’t been granted…sadly to say. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to be hurt like I am, but I don’t want to forget/get over Matt either. I know deep down inside he still loves me because he’s told me so, but I don’t know anymore.

There’s just something about him that made me be myself. He brought me out of my shell, and I was so happy of the person I became, but now that I’m not with him anymore I can tell that I’m slowly drifting back to my old self. I was even going to ask him to prom, and everyone knows I hate to dance, but Matt made me like dancing, being with him and sharing that special moment with him. I just don’t know what it is about him, but I loved him and I loved who he made me become!!!!

(We’ve been broken up since August 29th, 2008)

On Tuesday, September 9th, 2008 i sent him a picture message, and his had a pic of me and the song what hurts the most attached to it. and then it said stuff like please don’t forget about me even if it is just as a friend and that kind of stuff. and he sent one back saying…
"Theres my pretty girl. Ill never forget u Krystal dont worry"

I get to see him next weekend at a small festive that our town does, and he said that I can still go up and give him a hug and talk to him like we have done since we were 8 years old (before we started going out) But he wanted to know what booth I was working and what times. So I told him and then asked him if he was wanting to know so he could stay as far away as possible, and his response was…"Na juss wonderin"

I’m sooo confused I don’t know what he’s going to do this next weekend, and when he broke up with me it took him like 10 minutes to say that he wanted to break up, and his eyes were all puffy and he was shaking. Also after he
Before he even could say that he wanted to break up, all he could keep saying is "YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL LOVE YOU" and since that is all he could keep saying to me, it took him like 10 minutes to say he wanted to break up. Also after he broke up with me he started crying, and when I talked to him that night on the phone he said he cried the 20 minute drive to town and then 2-3 hours in his uncles arms. And when I talked to him on the phone 4 days after the break up he kept calling me his girl and saying I still love you, and I always will no matter what!!!!

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Hi, So we broke up about 3 months ago and completely stopped talking about a month ago. She has recently tried to talk to me a little bit. I would ignore her at first but about a week ago i responded but acted as if i was over her. I said something like "just friends" and she said "so your over me?" so i answered with "isnt that what you wanted: and she said "i guess." A few days went by and i thought i would have heard from her but didnt. She was leaving for Nicaragua with her church to build houses on Saturday so on friday afternoon i just IM’ed her to say have a good trip and we talked a little while then i said i had to go. Later that night she IM’ed me and we talked some more and i told her that we should talk when she gets back because i know things between us havent been exactly comfortable recently and she said "yes, thats fine" She has been gon for just about a week now and comes back on sunday night. I want nothing more then to get back together with this girl. We were together for a year and for the she has recently tried to talk to me numerous times in the last two weeks. I really miss her and love her and want to know if it sounds like were on the road to getting back together and what i can do to get her back in my arms. She was my first love and i really really really want her back. Anything Helps Thank you

P.S- i spent a lot of time trying to get her back right after we broke up, so then i just kinda took it easy and stopped talking to her for a while and i guess she go the point. I went back to therapy for this girl and made some serious changes that i needed to make in order to make our relationship work. I just want the shot to show her how much i have improved. How do i get her to agree to giving me that one shot i need? I just dont want to act like im overdooing anything.

P.P.S- We broke up because i was really clingy and never let her breathe. She comes home today, what should i do about that, like do i wait till she approaches me (i think i should do that) but are there any other suggestions please

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Hi, So we broke up about 3 months ago and completely stopped talking about a month ago. She has recently tried to talk to me a little bit. I would ignore her at first but about a week ago i responded but acted as if i was over her. I said something like "just friends" and she said "so your over me?" so i answered with "isnt that what you wanted: and she said "i guess." A few days went by and i thought i would have heard from her but didnt. She was leaving for Nicaragua with her church to build houses on Saturday so on friday afternoon i just IM’ed her to say have a good trip and we talked a little while then i said i had to go. Later that night she IM’ed me and we talked some more and i told her that we should talk when she gets back because i know things between us havent been exactly comfortable recently and she said "yes, thats fine" She has been gon for just about a week now and comes back on sunday night. I want nothing more then to get back together with this girl. We were together for a year and for the she has recently tried to talk to me numerous times in the last two weeks. I really miss her and love her and want to know if it sounds like were on the road to getting back together and what i can do to get her back in my arms. She was my first love and i really really really want her back. Anything Helps Thank you

P.S- i spent a lot of time trying to get her back right after we broke up, so then i just kinda took it easy and stopped talking to her for a while and i guess she go the point. I went back to therapy for this girl and made some serious changes that i needed to make in order to make our relationship work. I just want the shot to show her how much i have improved. How do i get her to agree to giving me that one shot i need? I just dont want to act like im overdooing anything.

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Hi, So we broke up about 3 months ago and completely stopped talking about a month ago. She has recently tried to talk to me a little bit. I would ignore her at first but about a week ago i responded but acted as if i was over her. I said something like "just friends" and she said "so your over me?" so i answered with "isnt that what you wanted: and she said "i guess." A few days went by and i thought i would have heard from her but didnt. She was leaving for Nicaragua with her church to build houses on Saturday so on friday afternoon i just IM’ed her to say have a good trip and we talked a little while then i said i had to go. Later that night she IM’ed me and we talked some more and i told her that we should talk when she gets back because i know things between us havent been exactly comfortable recently and she said "yes, thats fine" She has been gon for just about a week now and comes back on sunday night. I want nothing more then to get back together with this girl. We were together for a year and for the she has recently tried to talk to me numerous times in the last two weeks. I really miss her and love her and want to know if it sounds like were on the road to getting back together and what i can do to get her back in my arms. She was my first love and i really really really want her back. Anything Helps Thank you

P.S- i spent a lot of time trying to get her back right after we broke up, so then i just kinda took it easy and stopped talking to her for a while and i guess she go the point. I went back to therapy for this girl and made some serious changes that i needed to make in order to make our relationship work. I just want the shot to show her how much i have improved. How do i get her to agree to giving me that one shot i need?

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i made a question earlier about how my 2 year gf left me, when she moved to uni, and got with another boyfriend just 2 weeks later. i was so mad and felt so betrayed, i posted pics on facebook of her naked, that just made me feel worse,

she left me a month ago, she made no effort to contact me and is very clear she doesnt love me anymore.

how ever, everyday i still wake up and she is the first thing i think about, when i was with her, i really did stop thinking about other girls completely.

my whole life i only ever wanted one girl, just one a perfect girl, i really thought she was the one.

problem now is, i have 2 mates who never do anythink, no contacts, no way of meeting new people, im scared i will never find anyone special again,and worse is it posible to truly love again? does love ever die?
will i always be afraid to open my heart to some one again, will i always fear love. will i always live in fear of it happening again?
does it ever get easy?
how can love be so painful?

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So I have had a crush on this person (James) for 8 years. It is a really intense crush on him, especially in elementary school, when we went to the same school. I still had a crush on him in middle school and now we go to the same high school. In 4th and 5th grade, he had a HUGE crush on me. He made little boxes with my name on them with m&ms in it and various things. He even came to my house the night before valentine’s day in 5th grade with a bag with teddy bears and chocolates, etc… Although it sounds creepy, it was actually really sweet. I have been made fun of mercilessly ever since. Anyways, I was also in love with him even though i didn’t want to admit it because then something would happen and i just wanted him to want me but nothing to happen. All through these elementary years, he had known i had a crush on him. I had kind of beat him up, (like kicking and he chased me all the time, etc.) all through these years too because i liked him a lot. So when he had a crush on me, I started ignoring him after that valentine’s day thing. I have NO idea why but I did. And he supposedly got over me. But then in 6th grade we became friends over email etc. Also, he was really cute and everyone had a crush on him so he had a girlfriend in the first week or something, but everyone who knew the girlfriends said they were EXACTLY like me. And then I guess he has moved on and he has already had sex and done all of this stuff. Now we go to the same high school and I know its selfish but i really want to go out with him because i still like him! It might just be that he was my first love and I will always love him but I don’t know! I really don’t know if he has moved on either. I mean, how could a person forget all of that stuff in like 2 years? PLEASE HELP! I DON"T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

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heres the story of their past:
they dated for 8 months. she cheated on him & broke his heart. i was his best friend at the time &i helped him through it. she went away to college.. one weekend she decided to come back and stayed at his house. and the second she left, he called me & was like, im still in love with her. .. and that was the time i was getting feelings for him. .. so after a couple of weeks, i told him i liked him and he said he liked me too and broke things off with her completely . he never really told me why.. all he said is that she did him wrong again. but i know he still loves her. as much as he says he doesnt and im the only one he loves, i know you cant get over your first love that quickly. & now shes back. ive talked to her in the past telling her not to try to see him if she comes to visit. but she did exactly that. she showed up @ his work 3 times & at his house twice. am i a psycho if i yell at her if i see her? what am i supposed to do??

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heres the story of their past:
they dated for 8 months. she cheated on him & broke his heart. i was his best friend at the time &i helped him through it. she went away to college.. one weekend she decided to come back and stayed at his house. and the second she left, he called me & was like, im still in love with her. .. and that was the time i was getting feelings for him. .. so after a couple of weeks, i told him i liked him and he said he liked me too and broke things off with her completely . he never really told me why.. all he said is that she did him wrong again. but i know he still loves her. as much as he says he doesnt and im the only one he loves, i know you cant get over your first love that quickly. & now shes back. ive talked to her in the past telling her not to try to see him if she comes to visit. but she did exactly that. she showed up @ his work 3 times & at his house twice. am i a psycho if i yell at her if i see her? what am i supposed to do??

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heres the story of their past:
they dated for 8 months. she cheated on him & broke his heart. i was his best friend at the time &i helped him through it. she went away to college.. one weekend she decided to come back and stayed at his house. and the second she left, he called me & was like, im still in love with her. .. and that was the time i was getting feelings for him. .. so after a couple of weeks, i told him i liked him and he said he liked me too and broke things off with her completely . he never really told me why.. all he said is that she did him wrong again. but i know he still loves her. as much as he says he doesnt and im the only one he loves, i know you cant get over your first love that quickly. & now shes back. ive talked to her in the past telling her not to try to see him if she comes to visit. but she did exactly that. she showed up @ his work 3 times & at his house twice. am i a psycho if i yell at her if i see her? what am i supposed to do??

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She’s the mother of my daughter (who I love beyond belief), the only girl who has loved me after I gained a little weight, she finishes my sentences, she got some inheritance and paid off my credit cards with it, she is always telling me she loves me, but for some reason I always feel like something is missing. We get along great but it’s always in the back of my head….
We’re supposed to get married soon but I dunno if I’m really in love cuz I’m always checking out other girls and recently my ex has been talking to me and she told me she always thought we would end up getting married. She was my first love and talking to her brings up so many old feelings but I cant stop talking to her cuz it makes me feel good knowing that she might want me back.
I’ve never really known if I love my gf although I’ve always told her that I do, I just get along with her so great but I can never tell if its love or just a great relationship. I actually cried when I had a dream that she died, but at the same time why cant I stop looking at other girls??? And why is my ex trying to get back in my life???
I think she’s just a sociopath trying to see if she can still get me cuz she used to lie to me all the time and always got with other guys while saying I was her priority. We would always fight about her seeing other guys and I would tell her off and she would cry and say I hurt her so much and what not but I thought obviously she must not care THAT much since she would continue to do it but then again she was my first love and I cant seem to get over it… I dunno what to do should i stay with the girl who truly loves me or go for the one that might but would make me happy? Knowing that going for her would make me lose the one that loves me? Please help

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Me(21) and my boyfriend(26) were together for 3 years. Few months ago (mid Oct.09) we got into an argument. It was actually for a small issue, but we fought about it for a whole month. I accidently told him its all over and were breaking up.

But this wasn’t the first time we told this to each other, always happens. But this time he took it seriously. While we were arguing he was speaking with another girl and he was sharing our problems to her. She supported him and showed love while he was depressed I guess.

Then he started to love her and went to the extent to kill him self to prove his love for her, plus she also loves him too. He probably was with her for less than 4 months. He called me and told me that he loves her and things went out of hand and now he engaged her and its all over between me and him.

He got engaged with her in December. Its not because she is pregnant or anything. Its because while he was with her having xxx i guess her little sister walked in on them and told her parents everything. Now there sceretly engaged. Only his friends and I know about this.

I still love him, he was my first love and I wanted to be with him forever. He isnt a bad person or anything. When he gets mad he never thinks too hard before he does anything. He’s like that. It took him only 4 months to find another girl and get almost married to her. But I know that he still has some love for me. For sure he will never forget me, and I can’t too.

He have to be with her just because he engaged her. I know for sure that he will never love her as much as he loved me. He was my first love, and first for everything. Same goes for him. He didnt give him self alot of time to think before he made major decisions. I don’t know what to do. I still want him though. Plus that girl is everything that he never wanted me to be, I dont know how he changed this quickly.

I’m the reserved type and he loved me for that but she’s the opposite. She has a lot of guy friends,party girl etc. I know for sure his family won’t like him to be with a girl like herself. So yeah, he probably for got about me now, but for sure I’m still in his heart and he still has the love for me. I don’t know what to do, I can’t forget him or think of moving on with my life. Its too hard, because I don’t remember going through any bad times during our relationship. I only have good memories. He loved me off.

Anyways. What should I do??

My friends and family want me to move on. But something is holding me from doing that, I don’t know why I’m like this. Does engagement mean its all over between us and he’s offically married now. I can’t love him or try and get him back? I’m not trying to get him back anymore, I gave up. Whats the point of running after someone who isnt interested in coming back to you.

He still loves her but I don’t know if its true love or not. Ho wlong does it take to love someone truly and marry them? God. I stopped all the contacts with him. I’m concentrating in my life, still going through depression. He’s going out with her. But I’m waiting for him to come back to me still. No matter how hard I try to forget him, its not working. I can’t imagine the guy I loved deeply an dmadly and wanted to be with all my life is not “married”.

Anyhow I know that they won’t be initally married any sooner because she is 21 yrs old, and he doesnt have a proper job and other issues. I still have some time left. But I don’t know what to do suring that time. How do I get him to realize my true love that I still have for him. I really want him back in my life. I don’t want to lose him. I’m sure that other girl doesnt love him as much as I do. I’m really confused right now. I’m scared that I will lose him completely. Its hard to move on in life knowing that someone else have the something that you used to have and you loved soo much.

Please give me some advice. If does come back to me I’m willing to forgive for all the mistakes he did and accept him back into my life. i know things won’t be the same but I’m sure we can still have a happy life. But I’m scared, I don’t know if he’ll ever even come back to me.

He’s 26 and I’m 21.

I’m in Uni.

My parents know about this and his parents too know, but none can help. Its his decision right.

I’m just worried that I will lose him forever, since he’s engaged. His parents don’t know this yet. If he did realize my love can he break out of the engagement?

I know I sound childish and desperate. Thats what everyone is saying. But what can I do? I just love him. No one is understanding how I feel.

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ok so i went out with this boy 9 months ago. and at first it was just a little crush then a big crush then we fell in lovee witheach otherr. we went out for 3 months. then i broke up with him because he was cheating on me (the night of our 3 month anniversary) and so i cried so hard that night i was sick and i cried in the morning and so on and so on. i cried that whole summer. then when we got back to school i was walking down the hallway and who did i see. my ex boyfriend and he was looking like the best thing on this earth. he was staring at me and i was staring at him. but that was it. though. a few weeks after that he starts going out with my friend i was pissed off. (did i mention i was still crying every night because i was STILL inlove with him) but then they broke up and we started talking again. then we went out again OMG i was the happiest girl in the universe until i had to open my big mouth and say that people were talking about us because they was hatin on our relationship. he said he couldnt handle the bullshit so he broke up with me, then he started going out with my friend. i was sooo heartbroken. and so she got my permission to date him cus i cant stop them anyways. then the new girl came and he started going out with her. i was so jealous of her all the dudes wanted her but he had her already. she has hazel eyes and she is "thick" and he says he loves her more than me and it broke me down. because he still loves me and i was his first love. yes…they still go out but me and him still talk and say we love eachother but why is he telling me he loves me and he wants me to have his kids if he has a girlfriend? and why am i still inlove with him after he has put me through so so so so much pain i have been crying over him for 9 months for god’s sake.! i thought i was supposed to get over him. and i think he is playing with my emotions but why am i still inlove with him….why? and he said that when we went out i was a good girl and what he did was wrong and he said when we went out it was good times. it made me feel good and i always forgive him and take him back and he also asked me that if i could get back with him would i ….and i said yes. just like he thought i would and he asked me why. and i wouldnt tell him. then he said "you know that would be my decision though, right?" and that made me mad and he said he can get me anytime he want from whoever and wherever…but i think he was just playing…please help me i know i typed alot but still i really need a answer.. PLEASE

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My boyfriend and I of four years just broke up today. It was kind of a nasty break up – we had a huge fight about a lot of stuff and then we just ended the relationship. He was my best friend and we did everything together and we shared all the same dreams and we just clicked so well but then in the last year he just started to have problems in our relationship and we would break up then get back together and try to work on them but then we would break up again and this is the fifth time we break up but we had such a huge fight and now its the best thing for both of us.

I just feel as though I will never find someone who loved me as much as him or someone I will love as much as I loved him and it feels so bad. All the things in my room remind me of him – the stuffed animals he gave me, cds, even some of his clothes I have. All the songs on the radio about breaking up – I can totally relate too now and its like no matter how hard I try not to think of him something always reminds me of him. Ah, it just hurts so bad not to have him in my life and I feel like I will never get over him.

He was my first love too. Can anyone relate and is it possible to fall in love again or find someone new? Any suggestions on how to get over him faster or just make the pain less? Any ideas are welcome.

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i was dating a girl for four months and after about 3 and a half i was unsure about the relationship. after a one day break SHE broke up with ME. I realized how much life sucked without her, and did everything i could and got her back. We were together for 2 weeks before i found out she had been talking to another guy behind my back. This was the second time she had been talking to him. i tried talking to her about it and she didnt want to hear it, so she called me after school and broke up with me. i was devastated. i tried a couple more times to rekindle the love by pouring my heart out to her. we were friends for a little while after this, but then i got into a fight with the guy she had been talking to. because of this she was not talking to me. i made up with her again and now we are on speaking terms. i guess the thing is that this girl is my first love, and i am still in love with her. although i know she likes someone else, i am in love with her. what can i do?

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