Okay so I’ll try to make this quick.
She and I went out for 1.5 years, and after the first 2 months she told me she loved me.
With previous girlfriends, when they dropped the "L" bomb and I didn’t feel it toward them, I broke up with them within a month or less.
This was different though, I told her I didn’t know if I was ready to say it, but that I still really wanted to be with her.
So she continued to tell me she loved me throughout the next year plus.
Jumping forward… After this most recent spring break (2 or so weeks after) we were headed to the store to pick some stuff up.
I had been really debating for the past few days before that about telling her (FINALLY) that I love her. I thought to myself that I might as well make fully sure before I go through with this (because I had never ever said it to anyone else before).
So, being somewhat sneaky and untrusting, when she went in to the store I checked her old text messages on her phone. The text message at the very bottom had a little Lock on it, meaning it was saved… It said "Te Amo"… and it was from one of her best friends in Mexico. For those of you that don’t know…(she is Mexican, was born in Mexico, but lives up here now, speaks fluent Spanish, and went to spring break in Mexico to visit her dad)…. Anyway, Te Amo is VERY serious and it is essentially like professing your undying love to someone. Like the next step is a SERIOUS relationship.
So, I quickly put the phone down after seeing it, and when we got back to her apartment, I brought it up and asked her what it was. I said that I couldn’t trust her, that she was cheating on me, and all this other crap. She assured me that she wasn’t, and was BAWLING, like eyeballs about to pop out of her head she was so distraught because she thought I was going to break up with her.
She told me that the reason she kept the text message was to A: pretend it was from me, and B: it was nice knowing that someone could actually love her.
I didn’t buy it at the time, but I believe that now I do. So after the whole argument and explanation she gave, I told her that if we were to stay together, she’d have to go through a lot of pain at my hand because I was essentially going to treat her like shit.
She agreed and said whatever it took for me to regain her trust.
Well, about a month down the road, I sent her a text before she got out of class (we’re both in college) and it said something like, "I don’t know if I can ever trust you again." … I sent the text message because I was thinking about the "Te Amo" text and I was just frustrated.
She came over later that day and we sat down and talked, and essentially she wanted to break up with me because of how I had been treating her.
We broke up, and a day or two after we broke up, with ALOT of thinking, I realized that I loved her and I needed to tell her. It took me 2 hours of sitting in her bed and making small talk to finally bring it up and tell her. She said "I love you too" back to me or whatever, and then she said that we should give this relationship a second chance, but it’s going to take work, etc…
Well, now we’re broken up and she has fallen out of love with me, she still loves me, she told me… But I can tell she doesn’t feel the same burning love that she felt before, and she admitted that.
So I want to know… How can I prove myself to her and have her fall in love with me again? I really want to make her happy and I want to be with her, she is my life and I want so much to just prove myself to her.
Oh, and she’s down in Mexico right now for 2 weeks visiting family/friends, so I can’t really do anything immediately (kind of out of contact due to distance, cell phone charges etc) so any advice would be great!!
Thanks so much for reading this… I know I said it’d be short… But I have WAY too many emotions going on right now to keep things short.
Oh and sorry I forgot to add.. this is the order of things…
We broke up, I told her that I loved her… and thats it, we’ve never gotten back together, its still kind of like a "trial" period i guess.
