My ex and i broke up about 2 months ago. it was avery rough break up. she left me because i simply turned into a real big asshole. an asshole that im not. i love this girl with everything that i have to give, i would want to spend the rest of my life with her. the first month of the breakup was like we were just taking a "break" we still talked alot and told each other that we loved each other. but i was insane i pushed her more and more everyday. i know i shouldnt have but i didnt know better. this was my firt real relationship. we loved each other alot and were very close. we spent basically all our free time together and i know that she had very strong feelings for me.
at the moment were still talking as friends but she already moving on with her life, not with other guys but just doing what she has to do to let go. i simply cant let go. i dont know how. i feel if she gave me one more chance that we could be so happy together. but she doesnt wanna see that at all. i hurt her really bad. and i understand that she feels shes better without me.
honestly we stopped talking completely for a week before just to show her that i can give her space, and i found myself doing okay. but then one night i realized that we were growing apart from not talking so i panicked. i cannot have this girl out of my life. we were only together for 14 months but it was 14 months of all about her. she was my whole life. i loved her more than anyone could possibly imagine but i was not good at showing it.
she tells me that she will always love me even if we arent together. but i just dont get why she wouldnt want to give it another shot.. i know we could be happy. theres no chance at the moment for us to get back together but i never lose hope. all i pray for is that one day we can be reunited and live happy forever. im really confused right now and i can see myself dwelling on this relationship for too long. i have attachment issues. but i dont know how to let go, i just dont want to! i dont want her to be a memory. im honestly pretty insane but shes nuts too and i dont feel that i can find anyone else in this world that will accept me the way she did.
she says we can be friends and she never wants me out of her life. i tried to be friends, we started talking really nice and friendly and now im here. completely devastated. im constantly bringing up the past hoping she will hear something from me that will change her mind but i know thats wrong. even as much as ive pushed her away ( i mean i reallllly annoyed the crap out of her ) she still is able to talk to me.
wow, even a month before we broke up we had a little get together and she drank wayyy too much. she ended up talking to one of my gal friends and spilled her beans on just how much she loved me and cared about me. made me feel really safe with the relationship. just a month before the breakup. in my eyes it shows that even though she was unhappy for a while she still cared for me like no other.
i know this girl loves me.
if anyone can please give me some good advice on just learning how to let go or if i should keep trying it would be greatly appreciated. someone told me recently that if i really care as much as i say i do that i should not give up. and thats what i wanna do. but the healthy thing to do is to move on. someone please give some advice! thanks
i know i need to let go. but is there still a chance? is two months too long for a couple to get back together? im going to give her space simply because i want her to miss me. when i stopped talking to her for a few days she texted me saying she missed me and that she cried thinking about me but after i heard that i jumped back onto the obssesive crap and started bugging the hell out of her. i just want her back no matter what it takes. i would wait an eternity for this girl. so ladies tell me is there a chance for the relationship to pick back up even with so much time apart? i mean i saw her about a week ago she stopped by my friends to say hi and we hit it off great! she was talking my ear off we were joking around smiling, it was great. it showed me that it was still there. but i just dont know
