well i ad gotten back from staying 2 days at a lake and when i checked my email my ex said im sorry i have to break up with you and my heart dropped putting me into instant deppresion and i have many questions in one i thought id never ask anyone but i need her to love me again and is it weird that one look into anyones eyes and i can tell what they are feeling i want to see her eyes then i will know what she is feeling im emo goth whatever else along those lines you want to say so is she i love her very much its been about a week and ive hardley eaten anything i dont talk realy to anyone im in deep deprression ive written her 4 page poems this is one there is no word for the feelings i have for you i understand why you hurt me i know you had to for if you didnt the pain would be so great that you should fall so to the horrible of fate i know i realy love you i understand you do to i am so shaken i dont know what to do it affects the way i eat it affects the way i sleep everytime i think of it it surely makes me weep i have to drag my soul to just get up and move everytime i look at your picture it makes me want to die im sorry i screwed it up im sorry i hurt you so i know you still love me so that is why i want to go i want to die the most painful of death and i still remember the velvet taste of your breath it is not fun it is not cool to sit and weep and remember the time i had with you i love what life brings i hate what life takes i know for i am the most deadliest of fates i brought you to much love i brought you to much joy for after all i am not god i am just a gothic boy you are my love for it is true all i want to do is spend my life with you for that is not the case i wish i could just taste you love for it is the most agile of frangrances i love your dark black hair i hate you bring me despair i know it is the thing to do i know it is right i know it inside me and so i will fight the demon of death the leader of the cruel the killer of all people and the leader of the ghouls i shall run i shall hide to kill the deadly tide of love from love comes hate from hate comes envy from envy comes death from death comes life life is not fun without the one i know its true i need to be with you i know i am not right i know i am so wrong i know you are so right it hurts me to know that i will always need to fight if i want it bad enough i guess god thinks i dont ive dreamt about and omen that surely says i wont being your freind is not enough i know i need your love it kills me to know i guess i shall never know what would have been if both us were normal would we act like lovers or would we act formal now i guess is not the time i waste my time trying at somthing that you wont ever let be i am so sorry it slowly killing me to let you know what i have felt to let you know i know i have delt with all of this with you i am so hurt and tired i dont know what ill do btw i wrote this and im sorry i have dont anything to you i know you had to do it i am so hurt i know it is right i know i feel like dirt i need to be with you and i know i cant i want to kill myself for that i will not i know if i want it enough god will grant it if i get on my knees and beg will help it and she wont come back and she says i didnt do anything but wont tell me why i love her very much and i need to have her again ive done about everything i can do to get her to come back and it doesnt work
and i need to have her back i love her way to much
