This is the deal…
I loved my bf truly and madly…and the fact of the matter is that even though its just been 2 months since we broke up i still love him!!! SO MUCH and want to be with him. we were together for about a year. But in the last month of our relationship his ex-gf whom he loved came back to him…and guess what he decided to stay with me…but when i found out that he ALMOST was with his ex… i was mad and left him..I have been devastated..he is my true love…im 25 years old..i’ve had other guys but he is the one i TRULY LOVE and wanted to marry. His ex, my ex-bf and i are real good buddies…but now i dont have the strength to talk to either of them. Except that i still want him ..i still cry at night wanting to talk to him, to have him hold me tight and tell me that he loves me…cuz i love him so dearly. I dont know what to do.. HELP..should i talk to him?? he called saying that he missed me ….but i want him..but my brain says i shouldnt talk.. WTF!I MISS HIM.HELP
well he decided to be with me only after his ex found out that he and i were going out and she decided to stop speaking to him….But to my dismay she called the very next day to make up with him…so see it wasnt that he really decided to be with me…he keeps telling me that he loves his ex…but he also loves me…and doesnt want to loose me…but how can i compete with his love…he is my true love and i dont want to spend the rest of my life "what if" but i dont want to be walked all over either…
but i still love him and always will…and want him to be with me…and i wish i could go over to him right now…but the problem is we live on diametrically opposite ends of the world at this point…and i dont know when this geographic location is going to change soon… 
and let me add to this…that as soon as we broke up..he was with his ex ….im pretty sure they are still together..i do want him to be happy…
but why cant he be happy with me…he says he is..but he loves the ex…
hell…maybe i know the answer to this already…but..what do i do?? he called to tell me that he missed me and all i want to do is call him back and tell him how much i have missed him and how much i love him… i really do…
there is just absolutely no one else in this entire universe that could take his place…i am absolutely sure of it.. what do i do?
