I got sexual with my cousin and I think I love him?

i think I have a huge crush on my 1st cousin, this is pretty serious. lets just say his really bad but I truly love him no matter what… even though all my family hate him!
he is a drug dealer, been in and out of prison about 6 times, got tattoos everywhere, smokes drinks everything, he is 25 and has a girlfriend and a daughter who’s only a few months old. His not with his girlfriend anymore though they recently broke up. I’m only 17.

My cousin just spoils me, he doesn’t do it to any cousin but me. When I turned 15 I got well endowed like I have big breasts and butt and he seems to like it, always feeling up my butt and touching me, starring at me saying "your sexy but you no that right" and anyway when I turned 16 he would come to my house and then he would call me to come with him around the back of the house so my mom couldn’t see and just give me stacks of money for no reason, 0+ at a time. he just whispered take this sexy and passed me the money. I never knew why, but I knew they were dirty dollars as his a drug dealer, but I loved having loads of money on me. I never have to want anything cause he would get it for me straight away. I could say "Chris, my laptop broke" and he would by me a new one the next day, he pays for everything for me, ipods, phones, clothes, juicy couture bags, jewelery, everything. he just brings them around with out my parents knowing and comes in my room and gives me loads of stuff. I always thought "wow I truly love him" and always when I was younger thought he was soooooo good looking.
So I really began to crush on him and I can tell he liked me, even when his girlfriend is around he says "you are so sexy" and he grabs my butt and flirts with me all the time. and I showed him my breasts once and his showed me his erection. So I know I’m in the wrong here but I like to tease him cause it gets me off, so I started rubbing my butt on his penis and sticking my breast in his face, touching his penis and looking at him seductively and I loved to see his reaction…

So it got very serious when he told me he was alone and I could go to his to watch a movie that was on saturday night (the one just gone) so I did. when I got there we was all cool and then he asked me to sit on his lap and he started feeling me up and we began to kiss, I told him I felt weird.. and he told me not to and relaxed me, he started fingerin me and tryed to eat me out and I said NO, and I starting feeling his penis then I gave him a bj and he felt my breasts and sucked them but that was all, he tryed to sex me but I said I was scared and he did try a few times but I kept saying "no, please no" and got all emotional. (I’m a virgin) so he left me alone

But like his my cousin, and his spent so much money on me I feel like I should give him something in return. I love the way he compliments me and buys me so much and cares for me. he makes me feel soo special like im the only important person alive. he doesn’t seem interested in any other girls.he says he is too attracted to me and he loves me.

he protects me, his always there for me, I never have to call him twice, he would drop everything for me and always has done anything. if anyone called me a name he would kill them literally. If I had trouble at school like once I was being harassed but some guys I told him to come down to my school and he was there in a few minutes. I really like him. What can I do about this???


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WWEYA Showdown Is Back. Come Check It Out. WQ Inside As Well. Who Will Win These Matches? You Choose, And Rate?

Welcome back to WWEYA Showdown and with Backlash this sunday, things are getting more Crucial.

Event 1: The night opens with Chris Jericho’s Highlight Reel where tonights special guest is none other than the current WWEYA Hardcore Champion Finlay. Jericho welcomes Finlay and begins talking about their feud that dates back for months now. It started back at Summerslam 2008 and led up to the present day. Jericho says that Finlay stole the title from him because of his Automatic Rematch Clause that he used at Survivor Series 2008. He says that he would still be the champion if it wasn’t for that. Chris Jericho then requests to have a title match against Finlay for one last time at Backlash for the Hardcore Title in a Street Fight. Finlay accepts and they shake hands. Finlay grabs the Mic and says that he has one last thing to do, and he then hits Jericho in the cranium with the Shillelagh. Finlay laughs and wishes Jericho good luck.

Event 2: MVP Vs. The Brian Kendrick

Event 3: The General Manager And Current WWEYA Champion Shane Mcmahon is backstage. He reminds everyone that tonight he will sign a contract that suspends Triple H from any title match for the rest of his career. He says that Triple H will be on Showdown tonight, but he has not arrived yet.

– It is announced that tonight it will be Batista Vs. Edge

Event 4: Kane Vs. CM Punk

Event 5: Kurt Angle is backstage with his new ally Matt Hardy. Kurt tells Matt that tonight he must face Rob Van Dam. Matt Hardy tells him that this match is just a stepping stone for him. His real challenge is this Sunday at Backlash when he must face The Undertaker for the WWEYA World Heavyweight Title. They both then shake hands and continue preparing for Kurts match.

Event 6: Kurt Angle Vs. Rob Van Dam
Matt Hardy Ringside

Event 7: The WWEYA Chairman is in his office backstage. The MITB Winner Jack Swagger enters his office and begins to talk with him. Swagger tells the Chairman to overturn the contract signing later tonight. He says that Shane Mcmahon is a pathetic Champion and he should not be allowed to make the decisions around here. The Chairman says that it is done already and the contract signing will still occur.

Event 8: The Undertaker Vs. Vladimir Kozlov

Event 9: The Big Show is backstage and says that at Backlash he will face Shawn Michaels in a rematch and this time he promises that he will win and Literally break the heart of the Heart Break Kid. He laughs and walks away.

Event 10: Sting Vs. JBL

Event 11: Batista Vs. Edge
Randy Orton Ringside

Event 12: Shows the arena Parking Lot with a Limo parking. The door opens, and Triple H walks out! The fans start to cheer as Triple H walks into the arena.

MAIN EVENT: The WWEYA Chairman walks to the ring and welcomes the crowd to the Contract Signing. First off, he welcomes the Current WWEYA Champion Shane Mcmahon to the ring. Shane walks to the ring with the WWEYA Title in his hands as the fans begin to boo. He gets in the ring and grabs the mic. He says that tonight it will be The night where Triple H gets suspended from title matches- FOREVER. The WWEYA Chairman gives Shane the contract and a pen to sign it. Right before he can sign it, Triple H comes to the ring. The fans go wild and and he grabs a mic. He tells Shane that he is only signing that Contract because he is a coward and he knows that he would lose in a fight against him. Shane hesitates, and simply laughs and begins to sign the contract. Triple H then begins to talk again. He says that Shane is a disgrace to the business, and he is no more than a little punk who wants all the attention. This gets Shane mad and they both have a Staredown. After a few moments, Shane rips up the contract and says that at Backlash he will face Triple H once again in a title match. Shane says that he despises HHH, And he will destroy him at Backlash. You choose what happens next.

How was the show? Please choose the outcome of each match, and give the show a rating. Thanks.

WQ: Who will win at Backalsh: Edge or John Cena?


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Welcome back to WWA Showdown, come check us out. Who would win these matches?

Welcome to WWA Showdown

Event 1

Rob Van Dam comes out and says Last week MVP challenged me for the intercontinental championship and well MVP you injured a great friend of mine Sabu who was coming back to pro wrestling but you had to injure him so I accept your challenge for tonight and not in any kind of match how about. MVP interupts and says WOAH you don’t get to choose the match I think the general manager should get to choose the match. Eric Bischoff comes out and says I agree and tonight it will MVP vs RVD but there will also be 4 other people in a match that will be known as a 6 man battle royale where you can only get eliminated by pinfall or submission so tonight it will be RVD vs MVP vs Shelton Benjamin vs William Regal vs The Brian Kendrick vs Kofi Kingston tonight.

Event 2

Lita and Gail Kim vs Angelina Love and Velvet Sky

After the match Lita grabs a microphone and says Last week I lost to Mickie James for the Divas championship by DQ so now I have had it with the divas division it is filled up with bimboes with huge breats or untalented wrestlers on Showdown now look at Fusion’s divas division they have the best divas division in the world while me and Gail Kim are stuck here so next week me and Gail are giving all you fans a surprise.

Event 3

Sting arrives in the building with The Era of Greatness and Josh Matthews asks last week The Hunter Foundation ambushed you but we have no idea how so what happened? Sting says those men no wait boys are cowards and when I was in WCW we dealt with cowards so tonight I challenge David Hart Smith and Tyson Kidd for a match a handicap match.

Event 4

Kurt Angle and Goldberg vs Christian and Matt Hardy

After the match Kurt Angle says At what it takes Showdown will win the match and Matt and Christian tell your fusion friends to just give up now.

Event 5

John Cena and Kaz vs Mr Kennedy and Dolph Ziggler

After the match all of both teams come out and brawl and then Cena says Big Show, Nash, Ziggler, Miz and Kennedy next week I challenge one of you to a match not any match but an I Quit match.

Event 6

Rob Van Dam is preparing and then MVP approaches him and says tonight I will become to IC Champ nothing you or your friend SABU can do about it ha ha ha oh and RVD you know how I told you Sabu is safe in hospital well I got some people to make him go away forever. RVD then ambushes MVP and they brawl until security breaks it up.

Event 7

Rob Van Dam(c) vs MVP vs Shelton Benjamin vs William Regal vs The Brian Kendrick vs Kofi Kingston
Intercontinental Championship Match

6 man battle royal you can only be eliminated by pinfall or submission

Event 8

Triple H is backstage talking to David Hart and Tyson and says you two are tag champs and Sting has challenged you well Sting they accept on one condition you must pin both of them.

Main Event

Sting vs Tyson Kidd and David Hart Smith

After the match Triple H comes out ambushes Sting and then John Morrison, Lance Cade and Batista come out to help Sting but then The iWo signal comes on the TV and then 5 masked man come out wearing iWo jumpers and then Mick Foley comes out from the crowd and then ambushes the iWo and then the iWo fight back and bash him up 5 on 1 and then the screen goes black and says The iWo is having technical problem and then it come back to normal screen and everyone is knocked out except the masked men with iWo on their jumpers.

Rate the show and pick the winners


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