when i was 16 (3 weeks from being 17) i started dating this guy from my work who was 21. he seamed really nice until the day we started going out. on our first official day of dating he called me while i was working and was really mad at his mom and told me he was outside waiting for me. he didnt have a car and lived about 20-30 min walking time from my work. after i got done with work i got out to him and he started joking about killing himself and jumping in front of cars and asking me to get into an accident and started telling me about all these times hez "messed up" ppl and that he could "mess me up easily if i gave him i reason to" he made me pay for everything and if i didnt pay he got pissed at me and called me a spoiled, rich, b!tch (which im defiantly not spoiled or rich) he controlled everything i did. i wasnt allowed to play my music in my car, i wasnt allowed to hang out with my friends without him there, i couldnt go hardly a day without being with him. he called me a b!tch, $lut, ect for "teasing" him to much and not giving him any. hed tell me how good he was at sex and all the girls he slept with and where and how i would scream so bad because he is so good and bla bla bla. and accused me of cheating when i wasnt. he made me go down on him once (i didnt want to) and then yelled at me for not being good enough. i broke it off after 3 months and it was oddly easy.
its been about 2 years now since the last time i even herd from him but i still think of him almost every day. i have to drive past his house to get to school so i always think of him when i pass it. i found out a place he hangs out so now i avoid going there. i have trouble getting close to guys and tend to avoid them. and not as often but still sometimes i have nightmares about him coming after me and i get depressed for days over it. every time i hear his favorite song that he used to make me listen to everyday i get flashbacks that are so bad the lead to into a panic attack and i cry for days.
what do i do to get over it? like i was never abused as bad as some girls get it and i wasnt even in the relationship for long. does it sound ridicules for me to get sooo upset over it? i just want to forget him and move on with my life. he took so much from me. i lost alllll of my friends because of him. i went through most of my senior year without any friends and lived that entire year in fear.
