Okay, I am a 16 year old female (soon to be 17) and I am a junior. I went to a Christian school from kindergarden through 7th grade, & then my dad forced me to be homeschooled. I HATE homeschooling with a passion. I feel so depressed & I sit alone in my bedroom all day. I tried telling my dad that I hate homeschooling, but he doesn’t care. He refuses to let me go to a public highschool, because he thinks I will get into drugs & sex. But I am strongly set on saving myself for marriage & I am uninterested in drugs because I know the outcome of using them. I just want to go to a public highschool for my last year to get my diploma & graduate. I care very much about my studies & I study hard.
Sometimes I cry because I hate my dad. He won’t let me take driver’s ED or get a job until I turn 18. I want to get a job now so I can start saving money for a vehicle.
I feel so depressed & alone. I have no life. I have no friends & the only time I get out of the freaking house is to go to the grocery store with my mom. I sometimes wish I were dead, but then I think "Everything will be better when I turn 18." But it just seems like forever in this hell hole. =(
My dad is very controlling. My mom is the total opposite from him, & she has very little say in matters. My mom, me, & my 2 brothers have to hide everything we do from him. I hate living a lie, but my god, he is such a prick.
I just don’t know what to do. There is no changing him.
