I have been divorced for several years now. I’ve been through those fazes people go through when burned and healing. I’ve been to therapy, pastorial councilling, Divorce care special weekly group for folks who survived divorce. I have been known as the guy who hates woman but I honestly don’t hate them I am "Just VERY cautious!" Some people think I am a forever bachelore! But honestly I am lonely and having someone seems appealing yet MAN do I remember the Pain and suffering, the cost of a relationship here in the good old US of A. I have prayed, received mentorship, read books after book, been to seminars on love, marriage, and even revisited the teenage issues of saving sex for marriage and becomming a secondary virgin and making a commitment to God to save myself for the one He has for me. yet, I even get close and well, I sort of shut down. I see or feel the same mannerisms as my ex exhibted and I shut down! It is no mas! So what would you do in my shoes?
Some people call me "gun shy". But I sat and thought about THE happiest time in my life EVER with a woman and it was not here in the USA. It was while I was in the US Army stationed in Panama. I think about her and my heart melts again but that was so many years ago. Then I came back to the USA and its been nothing but pain and suffering ever since. I am sooo INTO Latin woman now it aint funny. All I can say is I got spoiled and I could kick myself because I did not marry the woman I deeply and truly loved. Now all I want to do is marry someone spanish, Latin, Panamanian, Columbian, Costa Rican Or someone Spanish from that deeply rooted background in FAMILY. They put our idea of family to shame for sure! Not before or since then have I experienced how a woman could love a man and her family like I did in Panama. All I know is I remember what made me very happy.
