We’ve been together for 5 years. We had planned our whole life! Businesses we wanted to own, houses, family, everything great about a good relationship.
About 2 years ago, a major life changing event took place in my life. It put me in a very dark place for a very long time, but the whole time she stood beside me and helped me. She is the strongest person I know!
During the recovery time of my darkness, I messed up. I took her for granted and used her. I didn’t show her how much she meant to me, I didn’t show her how much I cared about her and I didn’t show her my love for her. I used her as a drug to escape my demons. I thought that she would never leave.
Last month, she broke up with me. She said it was because I didn’t show her how much I cared and because I didn’t show commitment. (We had a wedding planned and even knew which rings, but I didn’t buy the rings. I was stupid!)
So with all that said, how can I fix this? You all have to understand too, she is literally all I have! I have no family. Her and her family became my family over time. I even lived with her and her parents for a couple years during my darkness.
She told me lately that she doesn’t want to get back with me at all and she’s still hurt and upset with what I did.
My biggest mistake now is I keep emailing her and worrying about her. She is my world and I can’t take it without her.
Please help me, I love her so much and miss her!
