How to cope with break up fast?
I just broke up with my boyfriend, and things are complicated so have a little heart and patience to read through.
He was my friend’s boyfriend, they have a baby, but when he asked me to have this relationship, he said he didn’t want a life with my friend and wants a chance to a decent life with me, as his status to the girl’s family is not that good. They are not married.
My ex also has a baby with another girl aside from my friend. Despite all these, I still tried to understand him – he said he needed me, etc,etc. He was the town jerk and I was a respected person (just to make an image).
My friend knew and of course, it ended our friendship. All the while it was hurting me too because i know i will sacrificing our friendship for a “love” i thought was worth it.
We’ve broken up last july, but we still communicated, usually provoking each other to come back or so,and we often did meet after that and intimate things still happened.
Yes im attracted to him and I want him. When I think of all his flaws, I’m scared to really be with him forever, but if he insists and proves it to me, I will take that risk again.
But he never did. He couldn’t even tell my friend that he did love me, but even told her I was just a sex affair, so this girl told me she feel sorry for me.
But still trying to understand my ex, I forgave him for that, because it was his way (i think and he said so) of lessening my friend’s pain (at my expense).
Now, I just want to move on. I’ve written letters and burned pictures, but I’m not over him yet.
How do I do it? I still love him i guess, and I am very mad at them for seeming to be just a lesson learned for them. They are back together, though my ex tells me that he loves me but his child needs him.
How, how, how?
This situation is affecting my work, this guilt and feeling of “I deserve this”, my hatred for them, this feeling of getting played on, are all stomping me down.
I really want to forget them and redeem myself. How do I make my image better after what I’ve done?
I thought its “all for the glory of love” thing, but he couldn’t even stand up for me.
I want to let him see what he lost, get back, let my friend see that I’m not the one who got played on because this guy is still even texting other girls and the mother of his other child.
Yes i want it all – revenge, redeeming myself, moving on.
I can’t move to another town by the way.
How do I make the habit of forgetting when I feel the pain every second?
I wanna get out fast. please, help.
