1- "Last Chance For Romance"!
This Is My last Chance For "Romance Tonight" Been Waiting For this Feeling For Miles and years ago … Never knew you can explore the way you have done to my physical Needs. Underneath It all was A dream that came front in a way that I have never witness before. Lost In a world and alone in a shell feeling heartless beyond anyone wildest fears that can occur, Untill; Tragedy take place to excelerate an heart beat to Abnormal Pace. Glued to the mass, Feeling The lenghth of time On the dance floor swinging from left to right without a sight of the beauty thats she hold from day in and day out. As the clock ticks this is my last chance for Romance Tonight. I been waiting for this Time For Miles and years ago….. Never had someone that can change my heart from cold, so I am Asking for one chance tonight. "ooooHHHH!!!!!!!!!"! I’m so Founder to this Whole situation that was brought Forth to me. Loving the sight of everything that change me in seconds, just moments ago I was Reckless, now I have my last Chance for Romance Tonight! #2-

The Abortion that aborted the Baby In The Process Of Finding A "Real Soulmate".
A young man name Trace cries out loud to his women Shelly, when he finds out she is baring his seed, as his heart pound , Shelly says how can this be. Trace response Was " This Is Heaventsent , a wish that was turn in to a Godly Blession", but to Shelly, ooh no… It was a curse more so like a nightmare staring back at her in the mirror that is now forming into her daily reality.At this point in her life, she could not deal with a child cries screams at night , so Shelly explain to Trace, yes your wishes are true, that this child In me is from you, but I can’t bear it Cause I"m still not done with courses in school. I have my whole life ahead of me and I can not deal with the pain that having this child would bring to me physically as well as mentally, so Trace responded to her while having a glare in his eye,Woman please know what your doing Before you go through with it , for that I was a child of a mother that was going to abort me and, an Angel talk her out of it, what you have in side of u is meant, if u abort it, then history will place are feelings with the past and that will be the end of something that we had. Six days later Trace did not hear from his woman.At this time he was at the park watching the Sunset nearly dark, While he was in the moment a child ran next to him, While the child was running it stumble and Fell to his knees. In the Background all you hear is Tommy.oh my God… Tommy!!. This was the child Mother name Sara, Gorgeous lady she and Trace made eye contact apparently Because He was picking her Child up. She smile and said Thank you.While he Handed Tommy Back to Sara He express to her, you have a healthy son. he fell without shedding a tear. In the Back of Trace Mind was Shelly and his unborn seed. So Trace ask Sara For her Cell or house number. she gave him her Email.He programed It in to his phone while waving by to her. He emailed her Instantly and she wrote back for days after days.When Shelly finally contacted Trace over the phone, she said her words very slowly, as his heart occur to skip beats she took a deep breath and said. I’m in pain, I Don’t want to think about what I have done but it was the best for me at this time, before She could finish, Trace said how could you do this, a part of me no longer exist, so he hung up the phone and check his email and what did you know. Sara had invited him over her place for movie and dinner with her son.He Accepted it.From that Point on they grow closer to each other.He was happy to have a child that he never had and a Soulmate that came with it. Months And weeks later they got married and she was due six months later to Trace and Her expected child…The End.

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My BF and I have know each other for 14 yrs. We had a life together for a short while and went our own way. Six years after our breakup, he calls me again and we eventually reignite the romance. Well, much into the relationship, I discover he has a drug problem. It later escalated and he lost control of the situation.

Unfortunately, by then, I discovered I was pregnant. Because I loved him, I continued to support him, while he supported his habit. Perpetually waiting for him to change. Well, our son was born and nothing ever did. I eventually kicked him out.

He hit rock bottom and ended up in prison. Having reflected for 6 mos., he claims to have seen the light and begs for a second chance. I gave it to him. I can’t shake the fear that he will go back to his old routine. He has had a few slip ups since he got out but, has been working steady and supporting his son. I do love him, but, I love my kids more. I just hate the feeling that I am taking my baby’s father away from him.

He is trying harder than he has in 2+ years to stay in our lives but, I just can’t shake the trust thing. Should I give it more time and see if he stays on the right path? Should I give in to my gut feeling and leave him? I just can’t re-live the nightmare but, I don’t want make a hasty decision that my son may hold against me one day.

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I’m a 26 year old woman and recently found out my husband is in love with another woman after months of suspicion, had it confirmed a week ago when I heard him talking to her on phone. He left me after telling me he no longer loved me, hasn’t done for months and wasn’t interested in saving our marriage. He has been ignoring me since he left, wont answer my calls etc.I dont know where he is or what he’s thinking.
He has loved and adored me and vice versa for 5 years and I never ever doubted his love for me. This is the most earth shattering thing that has ever happened and I cannot survive it. I cannot exist without him loving me.
Totally devastated and suffering fits of crying, panic attacks and torturing myself by reminiscing, looking at wedding photos etc. I just need him so much and he’s gone. Its like a nightmare I can’t wake up from.
I haven’t slept properly since it happened, keep falling asleep for about 30 minutes at a time, then waking up and crying, falling asleep again etc.
The mornings are the absolute worst worst. I seem to feel calmer in the evenings, then once I wake up it starts all over.

I have decided to end my life as I cannot carry on existing like this anymore, and I know for certain the future will never get better. I am an emotional person and I will carry this with me forever, time will NOT heal me despite what people say, so i don’t want to live a painful life. I would rather just fall asleep and never wake up then deal with this agony every day.
What I want to know is this; is overdosing the best way? It may seem like a strange question but I don’t want to do it and then wake up brain damaged in hospital etc…I will make sure I take PLENTY of pills, enough to kill me but is it guaranteed?

I will write letters to my loved ones, and will ensure that they don’t find me dead in my bed. I will put a piece of paper on my front door saying don’t go upstairs, call 999 instead so they don’t have the shock of finding me.
It may be incredibly selfish of me but I honestly cannot go on. I just can’t.

Please don’t anyone try to talk me out of this I have made up my mind. I want the pain to end and this is the only way.

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FYI: this has not been edited and keep in mind i’m only 13.
The book is about a witch and her family who are forced to move from there world of magic to a world of magic less mortals.

The Darkness

prologue
A soft swoosh of wind echoed in the background of my usually lively home. No one moved or said much today, or yesterday for that matter, enjoying the last few hours we had left here in silence. I didn’t want to leave, neither did my mom or sister. But we didn’t have a choice, it was leave or die. A single tear rolled warmly down my cheek, even though i promise myself i wouldn’t cry.
"Mom, do we really have to leave?", i begged for the millionth time today, not caring if i got the same lame excuse as the other times. " I just aced all of my finals and i’m at the top of my class. Plus Alexa and i aren’t trying to rip out each others throats as usual. We belong here mom, we really sincerley do," I made sure to put extra emphases on the last sentance.
My mom looked at me with a tired expression. " You know we have to leave Emily. Mizaray is not the same anymore, neither is Ezra. If we don’t leave, you and Alexa will be killed by the government for using underage magic. We must leave tonight or we may not have another chance to escape. Go and get your things, it’s time to leave," her tone was suddenly serious and parental.
My feet moved steadily up the stairs. All of this felt surreal like i was a ghost in a very vivid nightmare. My eyes felt fogged over, adding to the dream-like trance i was in. As i walked into my bedroom, i barely regognized it anymore. The normally cluttered shelf was empty, as was my dresser except for my wand and a picture of me when i was seven. Back then i looked so happy and carefree like nothing in the world would stop me from doing what i wanted. Seven years had changed a lot about me, now i was a scared and stressed fourteen year-old, wishing my life wasn’t about to change in ways i would never dream of.
Faintly i heard my mom grumble about me taking to long upstairs. Quickly, i went over and grabbed my two suitclases filled with my belongings. Thanks magic everything fit snuggly in the now gigantic space.
Alexa and i met at the stairs; her make-up was smeared on her face thanks to endless cascading tears.

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She greeted me with a look of pure hatred as usual, but kept her nasty thoughts to herself. Alexa and i had been best friends and amazingly close sisters until she turned eighteen. Apparently she didn’t want to be seen with a so called ‘little kid’ anymore. Oh well, i simply ignored her as i walked past and down the rest of the stairs.
When i finally made it down my mom looked paranoid, in fear that we would be caught and…killed. Deep down, I too was in fear of being caught.
"Do you remember the spell," my mom asked, her voice breaking slightly at the end.
Of course i remembered the spell; i had been memorizing it for weeks now and had finally mastered it. Weakly I nodded yes, fearing my own voice might break if i used it.
" Well then, i guess it’s time to leave. Everyone grab your things and stay hidden. And Emily," she paused," have your wand ready as a precaution.
In synchronization we stepped out of the door, one silent dismal step at a time.

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After three years of marriage, my wife has told me is going to file for divorce. (We decided to separate in August with the initial intent to just take a "time out" of the marriage, but while she was off on her own, I imagine she decided that her life (and stress level) would be lower without me.)

In recent conversations we’ve had, she said she needs to be on her own to figure out what she wants in life, and doesn’t have the energy to devote to being a "good wife".

I haven’t given up on the marriage, but apparently she has. I tried to talk her out of moving foward with the divorce, but she seems pretty determined. The only thing I can think of as a "last gasp" effort is to convince her not to divorce, but to legally separate, and stay apart for a while more while we work on our own issues.

Yet in several good books I’m reading, they say that if I really want to save our marriage, I need to let her work through the process SHE wants to go through (so she doesn’t feel controlled), and if during the process she sees that that things have really started to change (in me), maybe she’ll cancel the divorce.

At the risk of sounding sexist, I’d like to get thoughts from women, and married women in particular, who have been at the same place as my wife is now, and what they did or didn’t do during this period.

BTW, our marriage problems didn’t involve physical abuse or infidelity. Just a lot of emotional issues from past marriages, a "Brady-Bunch nightmare family dynamic" as a blended famiy, and some addiction problems on both sides. I don’t need advise or info on the legal ramifications of divorce vs legal separation. I know all those.

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K brief story. I’ve been married many times (1 alcoholic, 2 cheaters). I was only really in love with my last husband who cheated on me many times. He made our lives a nightmare, the kids couldn’t make a sound while he was home, we had to live by his rules and there was no room for error. But I hung in there until he left. I even asked him to come home, how humiliating. Well I finally moved on with my life but a part of me died. The ability to truly be in love is gone and I don’t want it back. I miss it and am very sad about not having that being a part of my life ever again. But I never want to be hurt that bad again so I will not allow myself to fall in love again, ever. Now having said that, I remarried a wonderful man. But I am not in love with him, and it is getting harder to pretend that I do. I refuse to divorce. So any suggestions are welcome.
I think I did not explain enough. My husband knows how I feel, and I treat him like a king. I do care for him and take very good care of him. We are like a couple who has been married for 20 yrs. I was talking about the "your heart skips a beat every time you see them kind of love" I miss that. But then I am afraid to surrender to it also. And to inform the negative people that chimed in, first I am not a golddigger. I have always worked and never taken a dime from any of my husbands. Next, it is not my fault that my husbands cheated. How can you blame someone for somebody cheating on them? Now I knew that my first husband drank but I had no idea how much until after we were married. My second husband is weak, he will do anything anyone tells him to especially women, so when they began their "relations" it was because they pursued him and he just went along with it. My third husband, I knew was a cheater but I thought he was a christian and had changed.
I do not jump into marriage lightly. I dated each one of my husbands at least 2 yrs before marriage. I did not live with my husbands before marriage so I could not be aware of their "habits" until we started living together. Now my 3rd husband had everyone fooled, coworkers, church friends, etc. Then one day he just never came home, did a 180 degree turn on everyone. We were all in shock. I was married almost 10 yrs (each) to my 2nd & 3rd husbands. My first was less than 3 because I gave him a choice me or the booze, he choose the booze. And to answer why I got married again is simple, my husband while not perfect, is the kindest, most loving person I’ve ever met. If I let him get away I would never find anyone else like him. I am very blessed to have him as my husband.

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Ok here it is this time…I am madly in love with this guy but right now our relationship is very very close to be broken up. In the beginning we were so in love and did so much together so to speak and were always talking about anything and everything and he would say the cutest things to me that to him probably meant nothing but to me, meant alot. and omg the way he looked at me, no-one has ever looked at me the way he did/does! The only thing is he’s been rather depressed these past few months and has changed a little bit, i still love him all the same though, but he doesnt talk no where near as much and he no longer does or says the cute and sweet things to me. because he no longer does this i havent felt as secure in the relationship and have found that i’ve gotten really jealous over any girl he talks to and i realise that my insecurities have been a nightmare for him to deal with because i do just tell him when something bothers me and i have asked what he’s been doing or who he’s talking to and i realise maybe thats not very right of me either. I want to change though. But 2 days ago we had a discussion about where we are in our relationship and he said that he cares for me ALOT but he doesnt feel the love for me anymore…as you could imagine Im devastated and know that I am the cause for that happening. I am willing to change and to try my god damn hardest at not getting jealous or telling him things i guess that may anger him like that. I plan on re-joing this thing we both did together in the hope that it will bring back the old times and we start fresh and he becomes interested in me again…I guess Im just wondering, do you think theres any chance of us regaining what we once had and me gaining back his love for me? or do you think its over and Ive blew it?? Please and Thank You…ANY advice is good, any tips, any ideas on how to win him back, anything….i just want him back! xXxXx

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Six months ago I had a great life. I was in love with my boyfriend of two years, Logan. Six months ago he was in a car accident involving a drunk driver. I was devastated when I heard he was barely alive. I stayed with him night and day. Lost my job and many friends. A month after the accident he woke from a coma. He didnt recognize me or know my name. My heart broke because I knew he wasnt my Logan. Two weeks later he developed swelling in his brain and died. My heart broke into a million pieces. I died with him. For the past six months I have been in a nightmare praying to wake up. Last week his parents asked me to go threw his apartment. I was wary but finally agreed. Just being there tore me up. While I was going threw his bedroom I found a ring. An engagement ring engraved "My Love". This ring was meant for me. I know I should move on. But I can’t! Will I ever love again?

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