How do I respond to: "Is your problem biological or psychological? If it is psychological, DEAL WITH IT!"?

I tried to explain that biology exacerbates psychology and if a person is severely traumatized and abused from a very young age, psychology BECOMES biology, which is why Psychiatric Medications work.

If, say, depression is all "In your head" and can be controlled through sheer force of will, why would antidepressant medications work?

I have Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, anxiety, and PTDS. These things have been diagnosed by a Psychiatrist and I am trying my best to "maintain" through the use of multiple reuptake inhibitors and, ironically enough, sheer force of will but it feels like a losing batter.

I told my father a few days ago that I was just having "A really bad day" because I was depressed to the point of crying that day and had spent the whole night waking up unable to breath because of the panic attacks… I had done all I could that day just to not cut myself but didn’t succeed totally and had clawed at my arms and exacerbated a number of small wounds I had picked in myself over the last few days…

He asked me flat out what, specifically, was causing this and I responded with "I have no idea… If I knew what triggered all of this, I would be able to prevent it!"

He demanded to know if what I was dealing with was Psychological or Biological… Because if it is "Just Psychological" to DEAL with it and stop making myself miserable.

At this point, the Borderline Personality Disorder’s tendency to flip the hell out in anger took hold and I had to leave the room before I threw something at him.

As if I were doing this for attention!?!?!?

As if I were doing this "To Myself" for what? WHAT?

Why on earth would I WANT to be unable to have close relationships with anyone?

Why on earth would I WANT to never be able to sleep because I keep having nightmares and panic attacks in the middle of the nigh?

Why on earth would I WANT to swing back and forth from depressed to outright hostile ALL THE TIME?

Why on earth would I WANT to be pissed off at the whole of the world?

Sometimes I’m barely able to dress myself, let alone get EVERYTHING I need to do done day in and day out… I’m just trying to stop thinking about killing myself long enough to get the invoices processed… I’m on medication… I’ve sought all kinds of therapy but don’t have money for it… Therapists just RAPE their patients with 0.00 an hour bills and then try to sell you a .00 bottle of "Noni Juice" that CURES depression AND causes you to lose weight without exercise! *MAGIC!*

I’m TRYING to cope with this… I really am… But what else can I do?

I have my family telling me I’m doing all of this "For Attention" or that I can just "Think Happy Thoughts"…

How on earth can I explain how severe childhood abuse… having your own mom put a gun to your head… Telling you she can kill you any time she likes… Having her beat the crap out of you because you poured her vodka down the drain… Watching the same mom put a bullet in her own brain when I was 16… Having an abusive relationship that just mind-raped me… And now trying to cope with just being ALIVE, let alone being productive…

How on earth do you explain all of this to people that tell you to just think happy thoughts or walk it off?


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I need a title for my Vampire Romance Novel.?

SUMMARY:

Gabriella Collins is crushed when the love of her life moves away; doesn’t tell her and most likely, killed her father. He was her savoir, and hero. She depended on him and no else. She didn’t expect to fall in love. After she opens herself up, and find out who she really is, her father is murdered and Lucas runs away…

Gabriella tries to move on with her life like nothing is wrong but in reality she is broken. She has nightmares and can’t seem to forget him but what can she do? Gabriella is different… her whole life she has known she was different than mere mortals or her kind. Gabriella has the power to wield the element, Fire. None of her kind has ever been able to find a Bender with the element of fire. Until, Gabriella. But she refuses to let herself be taken by the Conclave or RCJ, She’d die first.

Six years later, 17 year old Gabriella is without a mother or father and has definitely changed. The quiet, innocent girl is now a hard, emotionless teen, striving to survive. Her usually distant aunt, guardian, gets kidnapped.

Gabriella once again find herself with Lucas, her hate, her love, and he is committed to someone else.

Soon Gabriella will find out the truth of her past, and all the lies that have bound her so deep, her core aches.

Its bound to be explosive.

Gabriella’s life has always been a lie, but she doesn’t know. The one thing in her life that is real, is Lucas and her Love for him; but she refuses to love again.

They have both changed and she can’t stand Lucas. He is controlling, stubborn and disgustingly beautiful, all the while Gabriella is now ill-tempered, hates people taking care of her- which is exactly what Lucas is going- and won’t fall for Lucas again. She won’t put herself out there- never.

Lucas has always loved Gabriella. He loved her from the moment she came knocking on his home and asked if he wanted a friend. Since then he has always protected her- but now she is independent and definitely doesn’t want his help. She has changed dramatically and he knows she still feels the sting of betrayal. He wants to tell her he has never loved anyone but her, but he knows he’ll have to leave soon and there no point in getting her hopes up.

Lucas and Gabriella set off on a adventure, where they will both learn things beyond there comprehension. Gabriella is determined not to fall again- she watches before she falls, and Lucas won’t let himself be owned by temptation. But through this adventure they will both learn that love has a funny, and inconceivable way of working.

Fate will give them a second chance at love.

But, are they willing to accept it?

We’ll see. This a story about how Love works, for mortals or immortals.

Some of us Fall In Love, Others; Crash.
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I’m done the first 12 chap. (Each chap about 7-10) pgs. I NEED A TITLE. Any ideass??? Anythingg Please.

Here are my thoughts, or Ideass.

Midnight Awakening Dawn
The Art Of Forbidden Love
Once Loved, Twice Lied
Fallen (Flame/ Fire)
Night Hunting Fall
Lies and Immortal Love
The End of Immortal Love

ANY MORE IDEASS??? PLEASEE :] ASAP

( If anyone wants to read it, just msg me, I’ll e-mail. I’d love feedback :] )
By The Way, Gabriella ends up going to a boarding school called, NightCrest Academy (<- Lame but the best i can think of) and It also has A lot to do with christianty, I added the Fallen Angels in to the book, They are the orginal Vampires, but instead of Lucifer being a Fallen, The Archangels are, but God doesn’t ban them, he send them to earth, to guard Humans. ANYWAYS, other things i was thinking bout is this,

Even Angels Fall
Fallen Teardrops
Darkness Falling

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Ways to get over it? Or… Ways to get him back?

I had a breakup almost 2 months ago now…
I definitely still have feelings for him…
Just seeing his caller ID appear on my phone makes me really happy…
Or a text message…
Or a compliment from him…
Ever since the breakup…
I’ve been getting weird dreams and nightmares…
It’s like… "The Haunting of Your Ex-lovers"?
Nightmares like…
He cheated on you?
He had another girl behind your back?
Um… The reason why the breakup happened…
I’m not very sure either…
First he told me he just lost feelings for me…
Then he told me he just wanted to put away the relationship and concentrate on school…
When I go out to the mall and watch other couples it keeps reminding me of him…
Missing him real bad…
He however, did say, that we will meet again some day in – who knows how many years – time and try again.
Not a guarantee we’ll be together…
Should I wait?
How to keep him from running in and out of my mind?
Help?


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How to get rid of nightmares from the past?

I had a really bad past. And i keep having dream of it. Not every night but once in a blue moon I have a petrifying dream about it. Last night I was being chaste by a man who abused me. And I would have dreams about my old school and how if it was to go back and in my dream I was on my knees. These dreams get so scary that am completely paralyzed when I get up. i can’t move when I get up. My body feels so heavy. Is there anyway to get rid of these dreams happening ?


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my ex used to abuse me. how do i get over it…sry this is long?

when i was 16 (3 weeks from being 17) i started dating this guy from my work who was 21. he seamed really nice until the day we started going out. on our first official day of dating he called me while i was working and was really mad at his mom and told me he was outside waiting for me. he didnt have a car and lived about 20-30 min walking time from my work. after i got done with work i got out to him and he started joking about killing himself and jumping in front of cars and asking me to get into an accident and started telling me about all these times hez "messed up" ppl and that he could "mess me up easily if i gave him i reason to" he made me pay for everything and if i didnt pay he got pissed at me and called me a spoiled, rich, b!tch (which im defiantly not spoiled or rich) he controlled everything i did. i wasnt allowed to play my music in my car, i wasnt allowed to hang out with my friends without him there, i couldnt go hardly a day without being with him. he called me a b!tch, $lut, ect for "teasing" him to much and not giving him any. hed tell me how good he was at sex and all the girls he slept with and where and how i would scream so bad because he is so good and bla bla bla. and accused me of cheating when i wasnt. he made me go down on him once (i didnt want to) and then yelled at me for not being good enough. i broke it off after 3 months and it was oddly easy.

its been about 2 years now since the last time i even herd from him but i still think of him almost every day. i have to drive past his house to get to school so i always think of him when i pass it. i found out a place he hangs out so now i avoid going there. i have trouble getting close to guys and tend to avoid them. and not as often but still sometimes i have nightmares about him coming after me and i get depressed for days over it. every time i hear his favorite song that he used to make me listen to everyday i get flashbacks that are so bad the lead to into a panic attack and i cry for days.

what do i do to get over it? like i was never abused as bad as some girls get it and i wasnt even in the relationship for long. does it sound ridicules for me to get sooo upset over it? i just want to forget him and move on with my life. he took so much from me. i lost alllll of my friends because of him. i went through most of my senior year without any friends and lived that entire year in fear.


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