I know that it isn’t really a question but I have a few questions in here and I hope someone can answer them. I also hope that this question will find someone who doesn’t just take me for a nut-case, leave a sarcastic answer and move on. Please, this is a very real and serious matter to me. Also, this may sound like something out of a book, and it does to me too, but I’m not making it up!

Okay, let me start my explain my situation because the questions will be hard to answer, be warned I tend to wonder while I talk (or type) so there will be some apparently frivolous information but I felt it needed to be put in. I’ve recently… uncovered some powers that were almost completely unknown to me before. The little knowledge I did have came from the Harry Potter books and such, but that doesn’t count for much does it. My friend explained to me, if I can remember this correctly, that most people have a echo of the past in them. That echo holds power, like magic and that but not all Harry Potter or that, more ancient. In some people, it is stronger than others and by all means stronger than it really should be.

Just my luck, I seem to be one of those people, as there is a ten year old ghost named John who follows me everywhere and shadows that have started to dog my heels. There are also others like John, but he’s stuck around the longest so far. This is one of those things were I don’t think I’d be able to talk about with my parents or that… I’m sixteen so I sill live at home just to let you know. So there are only two people who I can talk to about this. My one friend who is surprisingly knowledgeable in the matter and my other who doesn’t know all that much about the subject but is willing to believe me. We suspect she has a similar power to my own. The shadows scare me and I’ve actually started to carry around a five pointed star seal with me everywhere. It’s like everywhere I go there is this dark thing breathing down my neck, but it’s not always right behind me, but always there.

Most of my discomfort about talking to other people about his comes from two of my other friends thinking I AM a complete nut-case for believing in all this, but they can’t sense the things that follow me. The good or the bad (lucky them). Also, I noticed in class that when I did take my tarot deck out that people were willing to come over and have me read their fortunes and all, but they didn’t really believe in what I was reading. Admittedly I’m not very good at the show part of it. Don’t take that the wrong way to all those who do read tarot cards a lot. As by now you should know I completely believe in this, but it always looks better if you’re not looking in a book for help. I asked one person if they believed in and they told me no and they were just trying to waste some time. As you can guess that didn’t feel very good.

So now my actual questions!
1. Should I approach my parents with the matter? If so, how the heck I’m I supposed to do that?
2. Is there anything I can do about the things that follow me? I’m fine with John and most of the spirits like him but the darkness is really creepy and I could do without it.
3. I’ve heard that you should always show respect to spirits, is it a bad idea to try and get ride of or ward off the shadows?
4. Are there any good reference sites that I could read more about this stuff?


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I started dating him when i was in my early 20"s.. I lost my virginity to this guy, it was my choice, i loved him and chose him. Well He ended up cheating, so i left, he started seeing one of the girls (there was a few) he was cheating on me with,, i wished him well and moved on, he kept trying to come back into my life and i refused, he then ended up marrying someone else he was cheating on my with, there marriage lasted 9 months, again he tried to come back , i refused, He thought i was oblivious to the fact that he was using me as his back up… Anyway, October of 2008 he started contacting me again because we had gotten into an argument and i cut off contact…. he wanted to apologize, so i excepted his apology, i had no intention on anything else.. he showed up at my house with flowers.. and charm.. so i started going out with him about 3 time’s a week.. we had Absolutely no sexual contact, for the first time he respected my wishes.. we were just friends…. well one day in january 2009… we ended up having sex after reminiscing about our past together…. after we were finished.. he rolled over and told me he was in a serious relationship with someone he was unhappy with…..at that moment,I felt so completely cheap and worthless you have no idea,

I got up,I put my clothes on and proceeded out the door, he ran after me and grabbed me by the arm and said "this is not the last time im going to see you… your mine, i was your first and I will be your last" (Nut Case) I just looked at him and walked to my car. when i got home I called my phone company to change my phone number…..

This still did not stop him.. he started contacting me through email,, so i changed my email… he started showing up and my work… do i call the cops? How far do I go? I knew he wanted me to have kids with him.. he had wanted this since we first started dating 7 years ago…..well,,, im not stupid.. he wants children with me to trap me…..so what better way to get rid of a man then to tell him I aborted his Child? When we were together the last time we had unprotected sex.. I did not tell him i was on the pill .. i was…. so a little over a month later…. i sent him an email… telling him he got me pregnant…and that i did not keep his child because he was a deadbeat dad to the children he has now, and that he would never be good enough to be the father of my child. ……….Harsh.. i know…. but hey… he put me in a really awkward position, and I am still having problems at 30 years old with relationships do to my trust issues.

I felt horrible after i did this…. but i knew it was the only way this man would stay out of my life…I desperately needed him to hate me…..and well.. it’s been almost a year.. and there is no sign of him =)

Spare me the Criticism… i had to do what i had to do… he treated me like a whore, when all i ever was to him was supportive. So screw him and who ever thinks Im a bitch for this!

I later find out he is Bipolar and on Anti-Depressants. so I needed to get away from him… this was the only way to make him hate me!

Men’s feedback please.
Fallenbose.. yes i do think extremely highly of my self…….and i will say it… he is not lucky enough to father my children…..and i will continue to find a man that is worthy of that…. as far as him playing with my head… i was 28 old… im not foolish.. i know when men are messing with my head… if i was as stupid as most women out there that are needy and immature enough to put up with a man like that… then i would not of went as far as i did to get him out of my life….. you seem know understand him, maybe you are guilty of the same immature, insecure action he is guilty of. So of course you will defend the behavior….. My opionion… People that Cheat.. are inserucre with who they are. and Are to needy and clingy to deal with the reality of there insecurities!
Curious………how is it i allowed him to treat me like a whore? just curious? for date someone for 3 months prior.. is’nt it proper to tell someone who you are "Just friends with " that you are ina relationship? and why was he spending so much time with me instead of this so called girlfirend? So i ask you… how did i allow him to treat me like a whore? Are you one of those christians that does not belive in sex before marriage? if so please spare me about what the bible say’s… open your eye’s please… and relise we are living in a time that is not of the stone ages!
as far as me stooping to his level/…. there’s so much you don’t know about this guy… if i wanted to type a novel i would..
LOL the men’s answer’s are great by the way… it looks like i hit a nerve.

That’s all I needed to know……. I did exactly the right thing….. he hate’s me… is discusted with me… and that is exaclty what i wanted! Mission Accomplished………….

And yes.. im online thinking about it a year later… Im not afraid to admit i loved him.. and it bothered me…. but i had to do what i had to do to get him away from me!

Job Well Done!


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