im so confused, i love my str8 friend and i want him to love me back and when i finally asked him…?

if he even have feelings for me cos we do make out but he’s str8 ..u see im his first and he’d been a playboy all his life and he said he’s sure about his sexuality thts why he’s not afraid to do things.. anyways he always tells me that he loves me as a person, i can tell he likes my personality and me as a person.. anyways so just yesterday when i asked him how he feels honestly h said that he’s afraid to love me like gay people do cos he also believes that anyone can love a gay person- which makes total sense cos str8s usally dont do gay stuff just cos most of th time society dictates thm.. and so.. this is what i told him, i said that i dont want to force him into this cos i know it’s hard to be gay and he’s lucky that he’s straight that everyone sees him as normal and it has benefits.. so what should i do.. should i loose him cos i care about him, or should i wait and wait and give it another shot cos ive been literally waiting for a year already and its kinda tiring..
btw we made this promise that we wont see anyone else.. and we told ourselves that it’d be just the two of us for the longest time..


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What should I say to get my Girlfriend back? Very Complexed situation Lots of help please =[?

What should I say to get my Girlfriend back?

Very Complexed situation Lots of help please

Where to start. , Well i will explain the details first, I am a 16 year old male turning 17 years old in 9 days, I have fallen in love with a girl named brettney who is 15 turning 16 In may, We Have been dating for 5 months and 3 days, She cut it off due to us not telling each other things anymore but I still want her back, Where things get complexed is that when we stopped fighting She asked me for my facebook password,

And I Gave it to her knowing she is kind of snoopy and she should read some things i dont have the balls to say my self, Me and her broke up after 3 months of dating because i cut it off, I Had guilt the day before ( November 22nd ) was due to me cheating on her, The day before i was bored and on the computer when one of my friends called me and asked me if I wanted to try ecstacy with him,( he had already done it before), The thing is i always wanted to try it, My whole life i had curiousty wanting to know what it feels like, What it does to your body, And how of course how sex would feel,

I met my friend about an hour and a half after we met, He gave me a “Pink PlayBoy” to take and i took it, I was expecting results instalntly but i told him i wasnt feeling anything about 30 minutes later, He gave me anouther one, It took about 20 minutes after to kick in, I was with a bunch of people at the time, Close friends, Friends, And girls i have never met before, When i started to feel the high It seemed like the most amazing feeling in my life, I couldnt even speak properly due to my mouth was clenching. I was becoming so Horney that I really needed to Do something to satisfy what i was feeling at the moment so I started paying more attention to one girl, Asked her for a kiss on the cheak, Held her hand,And Made out with her. It ended up to Where i realized i could not go home because my parents would catch me so i asked to stay at her place, She then Gave me head when we reached to her house and I spent that night there, When i woke up I broke up with my girlfriend because I felt so bad, And after breaking up with her i spent a week trying to get back with her,

Time passed and passed until she read those messages which was exactly 4 days ago, I wish i had never done ecstacy because first of all, I used to live in edmonton alberta, now im living in Chile in south america, I moved because after that first time i got a mental addiction to ecstacy, espcially since i got it so cheap i could manage to do it every day, In that past while, Ive been hiding to my Ex girlfriend that i was doing ecstacy and i cheated on her, For the first time in her life she cried over me, I really need help because i know alot of people are going to be saying, ” You dont love her ” and **** like that but i really do, She is the one that got me out of alot of my problems with my parents, she never influenced me for anything, She was i must say the only person that isnt family related i can say that really loved me, If it wherent for my “friends” Influencing me to do that **** it would never have happened, I have never cheated on her Sober, And i dont know what to do, I know who to blame and that is ME+FRIENDS, If it wherent for me being so Acceptave of that Crap non of this would have happened i would still have friends and live in the same country and have my girlfriend,

I need a way to Get her back, I really do miss her, I have quit all my drugs and drinking, I just really need help on what to say to get her back, If anyone knows how to or what to say please Try, And Write it as a first person message or soemthing please, I really do not wanna lose her,

Please, Thank you


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My wife thinks I am gay (huge misunderstanding)?

While posting on an "adult" message board for erotic film enthusiasts I brought up how turned on I used to be as a kid about the prospect of seeing naked women in playboys and films like Porky’s and how watching porn today can be a joyless almost numbing experience.

We all agreed that the most fun we ever had watching porn was during sleepovers at friends, one of our friends would bring out the tape and we’d see the hot chick on the box cover covering herself with a pillow and I’d have to stamp my feet as fast as I could on the carpet and chew on my t-shirt to keep from screaming for joy. The first time the woman would get naked we all couldnt believe it and we’d pause the movie and we’d have to cover our boners with our pillows and then go use the bathroom so we could jerk off.

Looking back on those sleepovers I don’t think I’ve ever been happier in my entire life, and it has been impossible to recapture that sense of naive joy and erotic wonder, even my first time having sex with a woman was a letdown by comparison.

We all agreed this was true and I came up with the idea of holding "sleepovers" and pretending we’re 11 years old again, and several posters who lived in my area agreed this was a great idea.

A few dozen posts later we were able to work out some ground rules. One big rule is that we all had to be at least 18 years old (most of us are 35 and older). Each member has to try to hold at least one gathering every 3 months (there are 12 of us) and we have to stay in character at ALL times so as to not break the spell. (kind of like live action role playing)

The host of the party has to provide the material, usually old playboy tapes, Penthouse Magazines, and hardcore porn (must be from 1992 or before, preferably 80′s "golden age" porn.

We all have to wear pajamas and bring chips and pop. We tend to play old nintendo games for an hour till the hosts "parents" go to bed then the host goes "look what I got guys!" then takes out the porn and we all jump around and high five and then wait with giddy expectation. During the movie we turn to each other and grin and talk about how horny we are and comment on the "action". Like if a women with huge breasts disrobes for a shower we have to pause the movie and go "whoaaaa!" "I’d like to suck on those" "Imagine if you touched her boobs with your penis!" "I heard that girls will put their mouth on your penis and lick it!" etc. There used to be a no masturbation rule but that was quickly nixed, the whole purpose of the gatherings is to feed off each others erotic energy the pent up erotic energy is too much to resist, we tend to all whip down our pajamas at the same time and masturbate , we try to keep a silly naive quality though and jokingly point at each others members and try to shout out different things when we *** "That sure beats Super Mario Bros.!" is my ejaculation catchphrase.

Since starting these gatherings I have never felt more alive and my sex life with my wife couldn’t be better, that is until one gathering where she caught an early flight home for the purpose of "surprising" me and ended up walking in on a dozen men masturbating in her living room. I will never forget the shocked look on her face and she immediately left and stayed at her sisters house.

I managed to talk to her and explain what she witnessed but she isn’t really buying my story, she keeps going on about how I am having "gay sex orgies" behind her back (we never touch each other!!!) and that I am living a lie. She has even started to indicate that she wants a divorce!

Is there any way I can get her to understand what I have been doing? I love my wife and ironically have never been more attracted to her than I am now, I realize I had been somewhat childish and now realize that I have a gorgeous voluptuous woman that my 11 year old self would have sold his Super Nintendo and Bike just to be able to touch her naked breasts and I could lose her. Please help me get her back!


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