I can’t believe im actually doing this… im usually the one giving advice to for relationships! i wish i could take my own advice. Okay so here it goes…
I dated this guy Ryan for a total of 6 months, we’re in high school im a sophomore and he’s a freshman at a different school that im at (it sounds stupid, but he’s only a month younger than me and he got held back because his parents wanted him to be the oldest for his baseball team) and we met one night at my friends neighborhood, and that night we ended up hooking up… but literally it was like ‘love’ at first sight, the 1st time i met him i knew i’d fall for him quickly, at the end of the night we got each others phone numbers and we text-ed all night-literally. Then the next night came and we hung out, we again hooked up, and then he told me he actually really likes me and wants to continue things with me and sooner or later we could try dating.
We kept hanging out for a month or two and he finally asked me to be his girlfriend. The first 2 1/2 months were perfect! His family loved me, my family loved him, and we fell in love so fast. We never got into fights, we were exactly the same, we never disagreed about anything, we were the perfect couple.
Summer came and then everything started getting harder- two months without each other. I would go to Florida all summer, and he went to New Jersey all summer. We started fighting because we didn’t see each other and i didn’t like the fact his ex girlfriend was on the trip with them (his ex’s best friend is Ryan’s best friend and her whole family is best friends with his whole family) and i absolutely hated that. So fighting a lot
We came back from summer and we were okay, but we weren’t the perfect couple anymore. The 1st day of school i went to one of my classes and this guy Cody that i used to like sat right behind me (Cody and I always liked each other since freshman year) so that day he texted me after school and we began talking again. Freshman year every time we’d start to like each other something would come up- id get a boyfriend, he was grounded, he’d get a girl friend, i was mad at him. We started to talk a lot, and me and Ryan were fighting A LOT so Cody helped me with every fight and told me he was there for me
Pretty much: Me and Ryan began fighting, he went to the Junior League National Championships for baseball, while he was there we decided to take a break since we were fighting so much. We agreed we could hook up with other people, but in 2 weeks we’d get back together. Cody and i were still talking, me and him hooked up, Ryan found out and got really mad, me and Ryan got back together, continued to fight, i still continued to talk to Cody all the time… and finally me and Ryan broke up
After we broke up we still continued to talk all the time, barely anything seemed different. All of his friend then started to hate me because we broke up. 2 weeks later me and Cody start to talk a lot lot lot more. We started to have a ‘thing’ and we were pretty much dating just without the title of boyfriend and girlfriend. I still talked to Ryan, until he found out that me and Cody did … (i think you can know what im saying) and that was it, Ryan was so mad.
Me and Cody ended after like two months … something around that. I still loved Ryan and thats the reason why i couldn’t fall for Cody. Me and ryan were still talking but just friends… I wanted him back so badly … so thats what i tried for… i did everything humanly possible to get him back, he just said he couldn’t let himself take me back because of what i did. He said he loved me still but he just couldn’t take the chance of getting his heart wrecked to pieces like that again.
Its been 5 months since we broke up. And i still love him. We haven’t talked for 2 months (because i got in a fight with my best friend O’Connor who is 20 and i called him a creep for wanting to hook up with me and him being friends with Ryan since he’s a freshman) because he got mad at me for that fight, last thing he said to me was like "whatever i don’t care who your friends with, i don’t care about you, you’re just a waste of my time" or something like that. But i can’t get over him… What do i do? Should i just give up, should i wait a little longer to see, what do i do? Its not simple because 1. Different schools 2. His family and friends hate me 3. We haven’t talked in so long. Is there something still there between us or should i just give up. Please help me
P.S sorry this was so long.
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