Long story short:
My ex loved me, but I was insecure. After 1,5 years he ended it. I fell in love with him, I realized what I had neglected. He gave me a second chance two weeks later. Two weeks after that he dumped me again. He didnt feel anything he said. I cried. I called him the day after. It felt good to talk to him, as always. I said (but only kidding) that I would call again the next day. I didnt, and he called me. He said I was a manipulative brat! But he said it with humor while laughing. The next day he called, three times. He even called to say good night. I took care of his pet for four days. When he returned we ate in a restaurant, and went to my place. He sat on my lap while we talked. We kissed and I left for my 5 week vacation. I returned not knowing what he wanted as the signals had been mixed. I went to his place, drank some wine and it "clicked" for me. I needed answers. And now! He said he felt better off alone, not with me. I said we should have NO contact. He felt REALLY bad and convinced me to remain friends.
I stopped calling and texting him, and he sent me a text message 10 days later wishing me well and humorously saying I was strangely "silent". I answered. Today I called. We talked for 30 min. Nothing special, no "loving" vibes. Just friends. He seems afraid of sending me wrong signals again because he knows I want him. But he is still relaxed enough to talk and laugh with me.
My question: I really want him back! I have no longer expectations, just hopes. What do I do next. I said id start training 5 days I week. He said "Ive heard that one before". He has, many times. But Im serious now! To prove him and most important – me!
Had I not gone on my vacation he would not have gotten used to not seeing me so much.
What do I do…?
Ive told him I want him back already. But he doesnt want to.
Should I remain a friend? I dont want to be stupid and ignore him. I neglected him too much as a couple already.
