pretty much, i let my ex go, and i miss him like crazy now. Every time i see him or his name is mentioned my stomach goes week. We hardly speak anymore, i just want a song, that sorta about how u let something go and u realise it was a massive mistake, or not knowing what you have till its gone, or about him moving on while your still missing him. you get the idea. thanks 
pretty much, i let my ex go, and i miss him like crazy now. Every time i see him or his name is mentioned my stomach goes week. We hardly speak anymore, i just want a song, that sorta about how u let something go and u realise it was a massive mistake, or not knowing what you have till its gone, or about him moving on while your still missing him. you get the idea. thanks
Before I met my bf, i was a happy "selfish", single girl. I was never the type who would easily commit into a relationship bc i was always content on my own and w. my close friends and family. My bf was confident/secure and knew he wanted me, worked very hard and we were in a relationship. The last few weeks my intution told me something was wrong and when i would talk to him about it, he reassured me things were okay but things were still a bit off. I’m a good gf-i’m understanding, i don’t criticize him – i respected, appreciated him and what he did for me, understood his "me time" and time w. his friends, I never nagged. I felt as if he wasn’t treating me the way I should be treated – he did not deserve the title. My intution kicked my stomach and nicely demanded he tell me what was up – he said he didn’t want a gf, he didn’t want to be in a relationship, he lost feelings, no spark, and he didn’t want to have to work anymore (work for what? I tried w/o doing the work – never clingy, never did more than I should). He said he couldn’t give me what I want and needed bc his car, video games, and friends are more important (his friends don’t have ambition in life. They just drink and talk about cars, some get high). That night he texted me, "i’m sorry i broke your heart like your d-bag exes.." WHAT?! and RIGHT after we broke up, he texted my best friend saying, "i lost feelings for her…" What’s crazy was that the next day he still texted me saying he felt horrible, sorry, and that he deserves to be called an ****** and a jerk bc of what he did and that he sorry I opened up to him and he lead me on…and that he still really cares about me alot and i’m everything he wants in a girl but he’s not happy and that timing isn’t right.." WH BOTHER TEXTING ME? that was more for him than me. Looking back, he was still consistent and affectionate w. me but not as much as he was before.
W. the help of friends and prayers, I’m doin a bit better but i’m still hurt. I feel jipped bc i was the happy independent girl and now when i wasn’t so scared of committing, he switches it up. I don’t understand – i’m not perfect but i am a good girl. I have respect for myself and others, educated, will graduate soon and into career world, have fun w/o being wild, take care of myself physically, mentally, emotionally, I’m playful and NOT a slut, and i was understanding and never critcized or nagged my bf. I called him out politely when i felt things weren’t right or disrespected. He said he always wanted a good girl bc all his exes were high maintinence and b*tchy. He said he’s used to being the b*tch in the relationship but I expect my bf to be a man and have self respect. i don’t want to put anyone on a dog collar and be demanding. My friends tell me it was the case of a "guy" who’s indecisive, doesn’t know what he wants and who he is and he’ll regret losing a good girl/good catch like me. My friends (even all his friends) think i’m "very pretty" so if i’m not ugly and I have a good personality, treat him well w/o chasing him…how can he let me go? How can you just lose feelings? I was always independent and strong but still gave him respect as a man. I’m old fashioned and i’ll still be a lady. Why would he do this? Will I be okay again?
I’m nearing my mid 20′s and my friends are older saying i was just "too mature" for him bc i know what I want, who I am, and am strong. They’re betting he’s going to regret it soon…Thoughts?
I am in the long, entertaining process of writing a novel, and I just wanted to know, from what I put, if it sounds good, bad, or in between. If you have a comment please tell me.
Here it goes:
As planned, I choked once I did see him. The pretty brunette at the front of the room had taken no time to register me into a desk. It’s really, honestly too bad that I had been seated in front of him, definitely. I wasn’t quite sure of why. In my eyes, it was between the fact that I had actually been forced to be near him, and the revulsion I felt because I couldn’t see his face. Either way, I knew we would have to meet, somehow.
Hearing the frantic beat of my own heart is what startled me.
It was not something I could erase-the feeling I got in my stomach when I felt his warm breath over my shoulder. Even though I knew I was already trapped, spoken for, I still wanted my heart to listen to me. This attraction to him was subtle, not a situation I would have ever placed myself in. I could change that, defy destiny. If this was destiny.
So I ignored it. I flung the idea out of my brain and ordered it to never come back. The natural sentiment, however, remained unscathed.
Suddenly, a tingle of warmth touched my shoulder. At first, I was sure he had poked me, but when I turned to reject it, his face stayed steady below, on the sheet of paper he had been scribbling on, and his back was glued to the rear of the chair. Result: nowhere within reach of me.
I could have forgotten, how quickly he seemed to look up, but it would have certainly returned.
“Hello.” His lovely lips moved in a chain reaction. I flinched, bewildered.
It took me almost a quarter of a second before I could even make up a response. “Hi.” One magic word was all I needed to say; nothing fancy.
I’d thought I’d seen it all: the astounding good looks, the silver eyes. But the grin that now played on his lips, was all I needed-wanted- to stop time. It was sideways, crooked, but hopelessly remarkable. There could only be one word for a smile like that: irresistible.
He sat up, and gleefully held out his hand. “I’m Michael Chast,” His voice was almost as enthralling. “And you are?”
Oh, my turn to speak. Wait. I couldn’t remember my name. What was it? “Jaycee Swallows.” Relief.
The smiled hadn’t yet calmed down. “Well, Jaycee Swallows, I would love to show you around, if you’re alright with that?”
Here it goes again. I couldn’t think. I couldn’t talk. What was wrong with me? “Great. That would be great.” No, I didn’t mean to say that.
“Can I see your schedule?”
Word vomit. “Yeah, no problem.” No. No.
Please tell me what you think, and how I can improve, thanks!
Actually, she didnt think he touched her because she was nervous.
To find out what happened, you’ll have to read the whole book, if it ever gets published.
Wish me good luck!
This is my first time posting like this, but I need to hear unbiased views. I don’t know what to feel, but right now i am hurt. Am I over-reacting?
I’ve been dating a guy for almost a year and we are very much in love. It was a love at first sight thing, we took time to get to know each other, but ultimately knew we were for each other. The problem is he is 9 yrs older then me, I’m 29, and he has been married before. He was divorced for 3 yrs when I met him, and has a 3yr old w/ her. He was always open and honest, and even tells me he is embarrassed to talk about issues with her because he sees that it makes me uncomfortable, and I told him early on I don’t know how I really feel about that. Anyway it was never a problem. She lives in another country, where he is from and his family is there. He lives and works here. I know he sees her when he goes back, and talks to her frequently but briefly when his son calls to talk to him. Again it’s never been an issue and he was so open and honest about it, I am not the jealous type. His son was just here with him for a couple weeks and he just went back to drop the son off to the mother overseas an is returning shortly. The day he left he asked me to go buy his house and do him a favor so I did, he had misplaced a CC the night before and I thought I knew where it was so while I was there I checked for the CC in this box on the kitchen counter that he throws everything in. I immediately saw this receipt from Victoria’s secret for some underwear. I had this bad feeling in my stomach, they were purchased a few days back, and I just knew they weren’t for me since he hadn’t given them to me. When he landed that night he called me and I asked about it, first he told me that they were for me and he seemed weird and then told me he would call me when he got to his house because his father was with him picking him up at the airport as usual. When he got home he called me and told me he was going to be honest and it was weird before because his dad and son were with him. He said they were for his ex wife. He didn’t even know what was bought, he had went shopping here with another couple (that are from the same country so they know the ex wife), I couldn’t make it, and while they were they’re the ex called and asked if he could pick up a few things for her from here and some of the requests were underwear from VS and he actually had the female from the couple he was with talk to her and go pick up the stuff with his CC. Did you catch that. Somehow I believe him, but it still doesn’t make me feel good. He has never done anything like this before. When I told him it was the fact that why was everyone so comfortable with her request for underwear and his getting it, even if he didn’t pick it out/up himself. He says he is sorry for hurting and agrees it was stupid and says he will never do something like that again. But i feel like I can’t trust him…he says it was completely innocent, why do I feel like it’s not? Even though I really don’t think he would do that. When we talked about it he was really sad, then a spurt of him feeling like I was looking through his stuff and feeling like this incident will taint the relationship, his last relationship was like that (after and the reason for the divorce) and she kinda stalked him, but he did give her reason too. To a point of him being like I don’t know what else to say, I would never do that to you, i didn’t do anything wrong, it was innocent but inappropriate. Overall, He wants me to stay with him and forgive him, and he is open to working on it. But now I feel weird, I feel uncomfortable (its only been 2 days), and I don’t think I can handle the ex-wife thing. She has never been an issue, but I really allowed him the freedom believing that he was doing the appropriate thing because he didn’t prove otherwise. I am sure his feelings are real for me, he wants to be married, we discussed it, he is the one that brings up marriage, I feel like I am not ready yet.
Am I over-reacting, or am I being naive? Anyone gone through something like this?
he is the one that brings up marriage, I feel like I am not ready yet.
Thanks for your comments, let me clarify somethings:
1.) The couple does exist, because they were watching his son while he was working, during the son’s visit. He has offered to have me call the female from the couple, I declined
2.) The divorce certificate is real
3.) his point is if he did want to be with her, he would because it would be much easier and he can live in his home country, where his son is. But that is not what either wants
He admits what he did is inappropriate, and he is apologetic, and he wasn’t trying to hide anything. He states that he will never do something like this again…..but I just don’t feel the same anymore….. I don’t know if I’m cut out for dating a divorcee..
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