i dated a guy last year for about 10 months and we were inseperable and "in love" long story short he dumped me the day before his sisters wedding, so i was uninvited. and then three weeks later he went back out with his ex who didnt stop harassing us when we were going out. this was mid october of last year. i haven’t been able to fully recover emotionally bc the rejection of that threw me off completely, it was during the worst time too, i had a nervous break down. i was working 40 hours a week at a really stressful job, doing 12 credits at school, TRYING to have a normal 20 year old social life and a break up, i shut down, literally went crazy. didnt leave my bed for weeks, quit my job, withdrew from school, changed my number, and all.
now that a few months has passed i am back in school, taking 17 credits, doing really well, am able to be happy and go out with friends and flirt with guys.
i’m definitely in a better place than i was when i was dating that loser, but i do miss him. i miss being in a relationship and it bothered me so much that he was able to do what he did to me, as if i were nothing, sometimes i need to remind myself that it wasn’t all in my head and that we really were serious…
and i try to forget about him but social networking sites, such as facebook make it so easy to check up on him and make my heart hurt at any given moment to see her all over his page, i want to block him, we aren’t friends on facebook but his stuff is all public. i just dont understand how you can treat a person the way he did.
and then i have dreams and wake up and it throws my morning off…. what should i do in the morning to stop this?
maybe go running? idk, i really hate that it still bothers me.
