I was "saved" or I thought I was saved perhaps 8 months ago. I really felt I gave my life to Jesus. The church said, "If you pray this prayer and you mean it…you’re saved." Well, I prayed it and meant it. Apparently I’m not saved because I’m a more bitter and angrier person than ever before, although I STILL LOVE JESUS.
Things got better/the same for me after I became "saved" and professed my new-found faith to the congregation. After 4 months, I stopped going to Church. I started drinking profusely. I started visiting prostitutes profusely. I started working as a bouncer in a nude, filthy strip club. I became angry. I started lashing out. I started cursing, getting a tattoo. I started being treated for depression. I dropped out of college. I’ve been dumped by 4 girlfriends who I was sleeping with and they all developed hatred for me while I was nice to them. All my friends stopped associating with me. I stopped reading the Bible. I stopped praying. All I’ve done is tell people "I’m a Christian. I love Jesus" and wearing a huge, gold cross around my neck.
Do you think it’s possible/probable that God is allowing me to suffer miserably and making me search out things like whures and hookers and dumb girlfriends that are immoral. Do you think God has taken it up on himself to allow me to reach the low in my life where I want to jump off the Brooklyn bridge due to my misery?
Could he be trying to show me that no matter how many girls I sleep with; no matter how fancy my clothes are; how good-looking I think I am. That no matter how many film festivals my movies make, that’s not gonna help me. Could he be preventing me from having any happiness to FORCE ME TO GO BACK TO THE CHURCH AND THE LORD?
IS GOD CURSING ME SO THAT I LOVE JESUS MORE?
Don’t they say that the devil goes after you even harder after you become a Christian? Maybe the devil turned it up a notch against me?
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Sick & tired of bullsh*t about love. So I’m getting a simple tattoo on my wrist symbolize broken heart but I want it something else beside a broken heart. Any idea?
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I NEED TO KNOW
if you could only see the way
he looks at you when you turn away
you wouldn’t have to wonder
is this love
the way he watches you move your lips
and when you stumble, fall and when you trip
but you turn to see him
and hes gone
so come on
take a chance
ask that girl out
to the dance
Chours: I wanna know more about you
I wanna know your favorite colors blue
I need to know
I need to know
I wanna know the way you feel inside
don’t let your true colors hide
I need to know
I need to know
I hear you might ask me to the dance
but this could be a fake romance
I ask my friends
what I should do
they say go on take a chance
go on go with him to the dance
you’ll have a great time
dancing under the stars
Chorus
then one day you take me by surprise
you reveal your hidden disguise
what am I to do
Chorus
Louise
I find it hard to believe the way your looking at her
u think she’s just another pretty girl
but theres more to her than just her dark brown curls
she’s different from those other girls
she lays there at night counting the celing panels
so far shes counted 492
she watches tv flipping aimlessy through channels
can’t wait till she gets through
CHORUS:
to scared to show her real self she hides behind
and wishes you knew your always on her mind
she makes a fingerprint engraved in your skin
the most beautiful tattoo it makes your head spin
so get her to open her eyes and see what the rest of the world sees
because she feels far away, bring me back louise
I wish she could see just what you do
because when she looks in the mirror she doesn’t see whats true
that girl with freckles all over her cheeks
the one who barely murmurs a word, the one who never speaks
CHORUS x2
UNDERGROUND
Verse 1
i’m over the fight over the fear
the end of the dark is finally here
i’m not letting go i’m trying to show
just how i feel this loves really real
ive just got to keep trying ill get there someday
who knows tomorrow, maybe today
keep holding on, were almost there
don’t worry babe I promise I swear
CHORUS
the walls start to crumble
were almost there
weve got to hurry up no time to spare
grab my hand ill lead the way
the times flying by, disapeering away
i was stuck under ground
without any light
for just too long but now it’s right
Verse 3
your deep blue eyes set into my face
nothing here but wide open space
the walls around me have finally gone
I am now free to move on
i now know what i want it is easy to see
im looking at you your looking at me
CHORUS x 2
50 years from now
Were jumping up and down on my old trampoline
I look up at the sky it’s an amazing clear blue
the green in your eyes shines next to the yellow flowers in bloom
we pump our legs to see who can pump higher
our hair blows in the wind and we play hide and seek
the days fly by and soon Monday is Friday
and one day the day will come when I’ll have to leave
but I’ll always remember the days I spent with you
on my bedroom floor under the red and blue tent
and I’ll never forget the time we went to sleep at 2 am
and the day we saw the movie that made me cry
and when we used to play dress ups and jump so high
and when you held my hand when we both crossed the finish line
those are the days I will remember when I’m sitting next to you 50 years from now
We’ve got our pink dresses and our makeup on
we go downstairs and play singstar until the morning
we’d pick handfuls of honeysuckles in the spring
We wouldn’t spend a second away from each other
people were always like wow those girls are always together
we linked arms and walked at the same pace
and I’d look at your smile and think I don’t want to leave this place
but I’ll always remember the days I spent with you
on my bedroom floor under the red and blue tent
and I’ll never forget the time we went to sleep at 2 am
and the day we saw the movie that made me cry
and when we used to play dress ups and jump so high
and when you held my hand when we both crossed the finish line
those are the days I will remember when I’m sitting next to you 50 years from now x2
Who knows where will be in the future
nothing is certain but all I know for now is one thing
that I’ll be sitting next to you 50 years from now
please let me know what you think. thanks in advance 
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In a little over 7 hours I will be getting my first tattoo, with is my late grandmothers name. I’m expecting it to hurt quite a bit since I’m getting it on my left wrist, but I was hopping for ways to get your mind off of the pain (EX: A stress ball.)
Best answer will be given after I get my tattoo to the person who’s idea helped the most. Thanks.
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