ok my big issue is my sons mother has left because of anger through out our relationship and how i am as a person she said she has feelings for me and always will but because ihow i am in a relationship she dont think i would change which im trying to prove to her other wise i try telling her she says she dont believe me and that she is talking to 3 other guys one she did something with and another kissed and lies about even talking to guys in general she has my son and is hiding from me wont let me see him and she kissed this one guy in front of my son i also told her i was talking to a couple girls she acted upset and stated its unfair that i can talk to guys but she cantso i know she cares she even says she cares and loves me but not sure about in a relationship she is playing around cause she ahs soo much anger towards me i need to talk to her in person just oncei think and i had inside info but the people are now mad cause i confronted my ex about it which she obvioulsy denied and got off the phone real fast and so she is in a shelter cause she filed a order of protection against me which i have a really good lawyer now but problem is i want my son court is not till feb 22nd and i have hardly seen my son i have not seen him in 3 weeks and she is stating she can non let me have him till court and its BS and now i have not much to go on cause i am basically looking to see how i can get her to come back cause she has thought about it alot she said and she doesnt not think im goingo to change i want to get her to stop talking to other people in the mean time cause she stated i would have to changed in order for her to even think about coming back to me and i am changing so how can i get her to come back and believe me and stop this mess i am willing to forgive her i love her soooo much i need all the help i can get right now
the court order she filed was because i kept on asking her to think about things and just basically harassment as she put it so nothing bad i did not abuse i would never do that and there has been alot going she says i need to see change in you josh before i can think about comeing back to you and i am changing i need to get her to believe me
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I’m about to be 21 years old now.. And i’ve been through alot.. enough to make it where I don’t want to EVER date again. In my mind, I believe all girls are evil and they want to eat your soul. Let me explain.
My first true love died in after a carwreck three days later in the hospital… As a result, I went into a really bad drug frenzy because I couldn’t deal with it. During this time, I met another girl.. Who looked just like her and had the same kind of personality too. Anyways, she always said she loved me and would never leave me.. [I asked her this all the time cause I was always tripping and paranoid] I was madly in love with her.. I would have killed myself in the blink of an eye.. I couldn’t imagine living without her. Well it ended after 8 months. And after it did end, I went crazy. I did things I shouldn’t have did and got locked up.. And I got a restraining order put on me. That was over 2 years ago…
I haven’t dated since. I have tried.. But I never ask a girl out.. everytime i started getting to know them.. they want to leave for someone else.. And I mean.. I always tell them i want to take it slow.. I would always plan to get to know them for a couple of months before asking them out.. But girls around my town always want to rush into things and start saying they love people when they first start going out with them. So every girl has pretty much ditched me for another guy just because I don’t jump in and start loving them. I know what love is now. I’ve felt it. Its everytime you see that person you love.. It feels like your heart drops into the pit of your stomach.. It beats so fast and you get a adreniline rush.
I just wonder if I will ever feel that again.. If i’ll ever have a wife of my own.. I don’t want to be lonely.. I’m scared of being lonely.. But i never show it around anyone.
What should I do? I’m in recovery right now.. [Been sober for a year] I’m a big Jesus freak. I go to therapy. I miss her alot.. And I hate her.. Its weird.. If I had the chance to go back with her.. I wouldn’t.. I dream about her sometimes still.. I think about her too sometimes unexpectedly.. If I wouldn’t have been on a drug that enhances your feelings x 100. I wouldn’t be this way i’m sure.
Any advice?
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Heres the deal, during the summer this girl and I had a thing, and it was bam instant connection, we talked 24/7 got to know each other really fast and things were great. then as we got closer together she was always on me that i didnt care about anything and such, so i gave time to think and opened up more, just to show her that i cared. things were going great, we were boyfriend and girlfriend and weve fallen in love with eachother. the best relationship i can say ive had so far. but she started getting more busy, she had work and everything, and it made us have a lack of communication. I have no cell phone, and the only way i can talk to her is through AIM or myspace, or on the phone. as this situation occured, communication was going down, i waited for her to call, and got nothing. and whenever i called it was at a bad time cause she was watching TV or whatever else.She hasn’t been on the computer much either. then i confronted her about it and everything to see what was wrong, and she was telling me to quit worrying, but inside me it was odd, because back then NOTHING would stop her from talking to me, i find her pretty clingy myself, but thats what i love about her, cause it shows to me how much she wants to talk to me and everything. eventually it led to a breakup because i seemed "clingy" towards her, and all i did was care. ive let things go for a bit and now were talking again, but it just doesnt feel the same, its been on and off because one day i ignore her and she flips on me and thinks i moved on and all i did was try to prove to her im not like that, then when she does it to me in a way i get all confused, cause right now she wants the relationship just not the title. we have so much history together and im so lost on it all, all i want to do is show her that i am not clingy and want to have everything back to normal between us. I’m not sure if this is a little phase, or if shes confused on it, or anything. she hasnt lost any feelings for me, she just wants things to take slowly, and its so weird for me because when we first got to know eachother we didnt take it slow, we were constantly talking and nothing went wrong at all. any advice please?
also, it bothers me that she rarely talks to me in school. its like im almost not even there, so its very confusing because we both want this to work, but its like she has the urge to talk to me every other day
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