I haven’t written a hatred poem for a long time but I gave my love my life, to this guy and promised him happiness yet he refuse to take it and left me. He refuse to give me a second chance like I gave him. I was left at home suffering and punishing myself every night and crying. The moment he said, "I never want you back" my whole body became numb.
Any suggestion to make this better, please tell me
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I woke up choking, struggling for air
I’m short of breath, heart’s beating in pain
My heart’s in the hand of the demon of despair
The fear is making my mind insane

Every night this shadow stands by my bed
Choking my neck and ripping my heart
Putting all these voices in my head
Giving me hope then ripping my skin apart

I filled my heart with hope and love
Forgotten the grief, Forgotten the pain
Prayed for guidance from the sky above
Trusted the false just to feel like I’m sane

My heart only ached for one more chance
Begged the demon to let me free
To reunite with my love, my perfect romance
But I was left dead with terror that I hadn’t foresee

Leaving me with a heart as dark as death
My mind’s too shaken, my vision collapse
Look in to my eyes, there’s nothing left
Traded my heart just for hollow crap

Befriended with lies and unchained your heart
I have blindly free you in to the wrong direction
The stronger my love, the further we part
My love is now a crime, a fatal injection

My gift for you was my heart to take
Lets throw it away like it’s decayed flesh
Trapped in my promise, a promise I won’t break
Now it’s solitude I choose until I’m none but ash

This is the path I have fallen to face
I’ve became my own hate that I’m sick of feeling
Being unbearably punished in my own disgrace
I’ve became my own saviour to stop me from fading

Forget the past, Forget the future
Forget everything that had ever existed
I’m just a blemish in your life that’s nothing but torture
Forget the memories and let it desist

The air sweet with wings now dark with scars
Too afraid to turn back, too afraid to fly
Given up your wish on the shooting star
The wish came true but it never got through your eyes
I am in coma, let the lies eat my mind
Hyperventilate with the voices shattering in my head
Leave me alone where I was left behind
Burden from the past and what lies ahead

This love now fear on the string of a promise
Buried inside a heart as deadly as death
No more to believe, nothing to miss
This love locked away forever from everything that’s left

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For the past year and a half I’ve been a loner since most of my real friends moved away or went to different school. I thought If I had more time to myself, I would get better grades but that didn’t help. The only one friend I had my freshman year in high school wasn’t a very good one. He actually held me back, He wasn’t serious about anything. I realized the only thing I needed to do to get good grades is motivation. Well, I currently have good grades, but– I’m lonely. I don’t want to talk to my old friend, I want to make new ones. Ever since then I’ve kept to myself.I have problems when talking to people. I have problems talking to people. (Ex. My voices gets quiet unintentionally) I’m… Shy. When I get into conversation, I get really uncomfortable and end up replying almost every question or statement with "Errgh". It’s humiliating.
Art is my favorite subject and as far as I know there is no art club at my school. I don’t see many artistic people at my school. I like playing video games. I don’t do much.
Anyway, I’m trying to change my like for the better My grades are good, I’m improving in art but…You know.
How can I make friends again?
What group activities should I participate in?
How do I get over my shyness?

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I used to hear voices in my head, they would talk to me and give me advice. I think over the years I’ve tried to get rid of them, but now I realize how much I need them. How can you make them come back?

I’m being completely serious so please don’t joke with me.

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My husband and I have had this battle going on since we heard the commercial and I can’t find the words to it anywhere. Does anyone know which name is he saying or where I can find the words to this commercial?

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What would happen if you found yourself dead?
Your heart just stopped beating, your spirit rises out of your body and you then seen into the realm of the spiritual world but it wasn’t Angels or a light at the end of a tunnel but what you saw were two beings, they were both laughing and they told you to come with them..You followed them down this long hallway and you didn’t know where they were leading you, now being hurried, they aren’t laughing any longer, instead, they are getting hateful..they start pulling you faster and faster, they begin to cuss and swear and mocking you. You try to pull back but to no avail, you start fighting them but they are more stronger. They begin screaming at you, pushing you, hitting you until at last, you break free only to fall into a bottomless pit of watery flames. You yourself start yelling, "OH, MY GOD, I AM REALLY HERE! i’M IN HELL! OH NO GOD! The reality of the the flames of hell engulf your very soul. No matter which way you turn, no matter which way you move, you cannot escape. The very air you breath is nothing but fiery flames and you are tormented.The flames grow hotter and hotter. There is no water to cool your tongue. There is no shelter to swim to, no place of rest. You find the first instance you are there, it is a never ending cycle of burning, misery and pain. It was never nothing you had ever experienced before. You hear people around you crying and screaming. "God I AM SORRY! HAVE MERCY! You hear voices that sound like people you once knew but in your own torments it is not important. You try to think, you then recall a time when a man approached you telling you of a man named Jesus, OH GOD THE BURNING, you continue to recall that the man was telling you have to be saved, PLEASE GOD HELP ME! the man voice become much clearer telling how much Jesus loves you..Yet You began rebuking him. "There is No God! Christianity is for Fools! That’s it! JESUS! HELP ME! JESUS HAVE MERCY! But you hear nothing.. No one comes to your resue! The words are now echoing in your memory…"There is no God…Christianity is for fools! There is no God! PLEASE GOD NO! THIS CANNOT BE HAPPENING TO ME! I was a good person, so if I didn’t believe in Jesus. I didn’t kill no one. I didn’t rob banks. So what if I drank? My marriage was on the rocks anyway, I needed a companion even if it was only for one night. I wasn’t hurting no one but myself! OH< Jesus, Please get me out of here!! Again, NO ANSWER! The flames, the misery continues, the crys, the anguish of the soul never ending, never a way out. There is no clocks, there is no time…Ever!

The time is now…Before you die to receive Mercy…To receive Christ…To escape everlasting torment and damnation. Hell was not created for mankind but you can willfully go there by dying and dying defiled by sin. Jesus says, He that believes in me, shall never see death….Don’t you think it’s TIME? Go to www.spiritlessons.com Proof from those who have died and come back to tell all!
Sorry about changing the qustion but yahoo seemed to have not liked the first question and deleted it..

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