Okay, so I have been in a relationship for about a year and a half. Everything was great until around December, when I started getting these obsessive thoughts about falling out of love with him… It completely destroyed me. I felt like I was going crazy and losing everything good. The Thanksgiving before I went to visit my family in Oklahoma, and I hadnt seen my mom in about 10 years (she was/is a drug addict, etc) and she showed up, unannounced, with a kid that I didnt know about. I was in shock and I never really got upset about it. I actually thought that It was kind of funny. In fact, I never cried about my mom even when I was younger. I was alway numb to it. When I got home I had mono. During mono I got very depressed and I didnt even realize it.
The first day I was better I was with my boyfriend and I were talking and all of the sudden this rush of unfamiliarity and doubt rushed over me… I dont know why. Ever since then I have been obsessed with "what ifs" what if I dont love him anymore, what if we arent right for each other anymore, what if I dont even like him, what if I never loved him? And so on… I just obsess about it and then eventually convince myself that I dont care about him… and then it just goes away for a while. I see everything clearly and nothing feels forced, he doesnt annoy me much, and I just feel natural and like myself. I dont know what is going on. I just feel numb! I feel like I am sabotaging myself!!!
Oh, by the way, I am 18, and this is my first real relationship. I am on zoloft.
PLEASE HELP ME
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Here’s my story: My pregnant wife hates me. My wife and I used to make out for literally hours and cuddle (never had sex b4 we got married) for about 6 months before we got married and she seemed to have a lot of reasons why she wanted to marry me, she used to tell me she loved me all the time.
I got her pregnant on our honeymoon Feb. 6th 09, and she was so happy and we found out after about 5 weeks that she was already pregnant. One day she came in to the room and it was like she tried to force herself to kiss me and I could tell she didn’t enjoy it the same as before, she stopped letting me cuddle her, she stopped telling me she loved me, she also went off of her Paxil (anxiety) for the baby.
I was on Paxil as well. Pretty soon I was fighting for our marriage and she was thinking about divorce, I got us into marriage counseling and got her onto Zoloft, it helped but not enough. Her only reason for divroce is that she doesn’t love me and that I irritate her and I smell etc.
I have been fighting this for months and she has allready asked me to leave and I did just that and have supported her in making sure she has enough food and gas etc. It seems to me that the only reason gives me for wanting divorce is just her not having proper feelings, other than that we have alot in common and we don’t argue much at all, I’ve never yelled at her.
She really is set on divorce though…
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I am really wondering: Will my wife ever love me again? My wife got pregnant on our honeymoon and we found out about 4-5 weeks later and about a week later she went off of her Paxil medication for anxiety I was taking it as well and went off of it too.
Quickly our marriage went down the drain she stopped working and started sleeping like 18 hours a day and she became very critical of me and stopped letting me kiss her and she got very irriatated with me easily, saying my breath was bad and she would get upset because I was breathing too loud in bed, about 2 months into the marriage she stopped telling me she loved me and started sleeping in another bed and would no longer hang out or cuddle and she started asking me to leave and give her a break ect.
I am pretty sure she loved me at one point because after she broke up with me while dating she called me a month later and wanted me back and we got married shortly after. I took my wife to marriage counseling which actually helped alot but eventually she gave up and feels like she’ll never be able to love me. 3 weeks ago she had me move out and she plans to sign papers a month after the baby is born. I’ve done everything I can to keep her, I took her to the psychiatrist and got her on zoloft and it started helping and she started treating me much better but only once in the last month or so she told me that she felt like telling me she loved me but wouldn’t do it because she was worried she might get my hopes up.
She let me cuddle with her all night and actually sleep in the same bed 3 times in the last month but now it’s like she’s made her decision to divorce soon.
I still pay her rent and get her groceries and I try to support her and give her space but everytime I go back to her I end up in tears when I leave I’ve never loved someone so much and to have it go like this is almost too much for me.
Is there any hope that after the baby is born I won’t irritate her so much and she will be able to have feelings for me again?
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